Sweet-Bitter Life

aku : "mak,apa yang selalu kau yakini dari dulu?"

si mamak : #berhenti latihan keyboard, balik ngadap aku "aku selalu yakin kalau kita berbuat baik, kita akan dapat yang lebih baik. Dan kalau kau berusaha, kau pasti  bisa."
aku : "kau ga ada suka atau ngidolain orang gitu..?"
si mamak : "enggak pulak.. :)" 


#here are also some random conversations beetwen mom and I

si mamak : "Makanya, nanti kalau kau punya pacar atau calon suami, aku bakal nanya ke dia 'gimana perasaannya sama keluarga kita'.. Karna aku cuman punya dua anak, kalau kami udah ga ada (read: my mom and dad) dia harus bisa nganggap Cia tu adiknya sendiri, gitu juga nanti calon suaminya Cia harus bisa nganggap kau kakaknya sendiri.. Kalian (read: aku-Cia) harus punya ikatan yang kuat, karna kalian saudara, dia satu-satunya keluargamu kalok kami udah ga ada.."

si mamak : "Hidup itu ga bisa cuman senangnya terus, ga bisa juga sedihnya terus. Itu berganti-ganti. perubahan itu lah yang buat kita jadi lebih dewasa ngadapin hidup.."
Cia : "hahah..iyah..itu yang selalu mamak bilang ke aku.."

aku: " :) " 

si mamak : "you have to be tough..dan selalu yakin kalau jalan itu masih panjang, akan ada saat-saat yang jauh lebih baik dari yang sekarang ini.." 

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Hubunganku sama si mamak ga selalu baik-baik aja. Ga juga selalu berantam. It's changing. It's  like life-graphic. But, I have to say, my Mom is the person that has the biggest part in my life. She knows my very dark expirience. And I always try to not hide anything from her. She is the best philosopher I know.

I'm not always sure about things. But I have faith in these, I always do : 
- I believe in God and I can't get to the point where I understand my life. It's planned and it's meant in the best way :) 
- I have faith in my Mom. In every word she says. I love you Mom :') 
- I have faith that I CAN BE a BETTER one. I just HAVE to FIGHT for IT.

And I always know this :

- I love Adam Lambert.
I've got used to people questioning this. It's okay.
For me, Adam has this big talent, and it has nothing to do with his very personal life. His quality is ONE thing and is his sexuality is ANOTHER DIFFERENT thing. :)
I'm gonna meet Adam. I'll work the hell out for it.. ;p  

 

I know Adam is so gonna WIN GRAMMY :)

- I'm fond of Diana Rikasari.
For some people, she may be just another blogger teeling her daily life on a social-network. But for me, she's someone who FIGHTs for her dreams, who listens to her heart, and is willing to take the risks of what she did.

The one and only Diana Rikasari :)

- I like CosmoGirl! a lot, and I can't ressist GoGirl!'s sweet bonus :p

Please CosmoGirl! gives sweeter MERCHANDISES :p

- I'm a fan of Maroon 5, The Script, Paramore, Rihanna, Raisa, and many more.. I can make a list of it :)

- Joshua Ladet is a gifted one and so is Jessica Sanches (sorry if I miss-write their names :p)

Joshua Ladet and Jessica Shanches

- Almadea Sela Gracia Ginting is a sweet best friend of mine. I can't thank her enough for her patience towards me, her super random jokes, her ability in reading my stupid-open-book expressions :p, for everything  :)

I know, i know... we look like "WHAT THE SH*T! " :p

- I have these very kind and sweet cousins, my Kak Abeth and Bang Alex. I know God always has the best plans for people who believe in Him :)

- I can NEVER THANK EVERY ONE OF YOU ENOUGH , for KINDLY COMING AND READING my very random, silly, ridiculous stories... Wheter you come by inccident or you're willing to know my life, I THANK YOU :)