Burning Heat

Hi everyone..

It's February, and Padang is already heating like burning fire.

Mood is always the-sun-is-scary-outside-I'll-just-stay-home.

You know it's nice to know who you really are.

Even if you're a jerk, it's a good thing.

And sometimes, embracing it is one of the greatest value one can have.

Let's strip.

It's the regeneration time in every student organisation in campus.

And honestly, it's also the "SICK-OF-IT" phase.

This lately I've been like "should I apply?" "what will I get?" "what if I get bored in the middle and ruin stuff?" 

But now I'm just like "Whatever."

There will come a time I know exactly what I want and why I want it.

Bang Yanda : " Gladys, kamu tuh kritis, bagus. Tapi kamu kurang CIMSA. "

One of the conversation we had in Project Team gossiping meeting time.

At times I'm like " Should I smile and say hi to every CIMSA member I know, so it shows how much I love CIMSA? "

Especially in this regeneration time, I feel a bit biased if I wanna say hi to my senior in CIMSA and who is also the Executive Board. 

I'd say to myself  " What are you doing bitch? Trying to win their heart to vote for you, to trust you?"

So I end up keeping it to myself or just smile. -_-"

I know.

But, whatever.

I also understand that appreciation is a must.

I mean it's not a big thing to say "thank you" or "you've been a good help".

For nothing people do to us is really his compulsary.

So, yeah in the middle of the boiling afternoon in Padang, I wish you all a happy and joyfull time for the rest of the day.

XOXO

Gladys Olivia

Water Under The Bridge

" If you're gonna let me down, Let me down gently

                  Don't pretend that you don't want me

           Our love ain't water under the bridge."                                            Adele -  Water under The Bridge

Hi peeps!
How's life? Wonderful, I hope. :)

It's too long since I wrote my fave things.
So today's post will be about my recent "dope" things :

1. Adele's 25 Album
I downloaded the whole album when I was in Jakarta last week. And I just listened to it today. Turnt out I'm so into Water Under The Bridge. I love the intro, it sounds so "inviting" ;)

2. Chemical Peeling
So my acne out-break has been on its "challenging" phase. XD
And I've been on some pills given by the dermatologist, who is also my lecturer, for almost a month. And last Monday, my visit was to have a chemical peeling.
It IS always an excrutiating pain when the peeling is put on your face.
And I gotta be honest, if I could scream, I would. But since it's a clinic, and there are other patients, I don't want them thinking the doctor is skinning me or something. :p

So yeah, after the undeniable pain, the chemical peeling works beautifully gross. :)
It makes your skin to literally peel off, so the dead skin can be regenerated.
You will look a lot like a snake on its scale-changing phase.

Close enough XD

3. Empowered me
I've had problems with self-worth, self-esteem for long time due to underlying predisposising events.
It's funny that my out-break problem was just a precipitating agent.
( I learnt this term on dr. Arina's psychosomatic class ) ;)

Funny how my most-worried thoughts, actually came true.
I went to CIMSA's National Leadership Summit in Jogja and CIMSA's Training New Trainer Regional in Riau with my still-inflamed-all-over skin.

It's surprising how I was as calm as sleeping baby in a normally-traumatizing experience, yet I was crazy on thought about taking this semester off because I couldn't handle "people looking, asking, and symphatizing about my condition".
Silly, right?

From what happened this whole one month, I get to learn, a lot.

I was mentally sick. And I am very blessed to have myself, my Mamak, Cia, Bapak, Jo around.

I am who I am now. And I accept my past, my present, and am thrieving for my future now.

And I finally got what Mamak always tells me.
You can't just take the "goodness" from God.
What if He gives you "hardship"? Then, He's no kind anymore?
If this is a sweet thing, take it. If this is bitterness, you still have to take it.

I see now, I can't have all things the way I want, the way I think good for me.
Because I'm a f*cking human. What do I know about life?
All I can do is make sure I AM JOYFUL IN MY EVERY CONDITION. And IT'S ON ME, not any other person's obligation.

And I'm so into empowering myself.
After my CIMSA's NLS and TNT, I know I want more, more empowerment.
To actually make SDGs into real action.
To live my dream.

NLS in Jogja

NLS Farewell Party 

Inflamed in Taman Buah, Jogja

C A M O U F L A G E

I'm officially a novice CIMSA trainer. ;)