Lost Stars

  And God,tell us the meaning

  Youth is wasted on the young its hunting season

  And this lamb is on the hunt searching for meaning

   But all we are lost stars trying to light..light up the dark

- Adam Lavine, Lost Stars

Hi bloggies!

How you all doing? :)

Hope all of you are well. 

So, I just moved to Padang,Sumatera Barat, to study Medicine.

It's still part of Indonesia though, in case you don't know where Padang is. :p

I retook the SBMPTN and, with all praises and thanks to God, made it to my first option, Medical School of Andalas University.

I've been here since August 4, so it's been a week now. Mom accompanied me until last Trustday.

One of the reasons why I never posted anything for the last couple months was this, me retaking the SBMPTN. Truth is, since the second semester in Dentistry, I've registered to a Bimbingan Belajar, but  because of the schedules with my classses in Dentistry, I didn't come often. Or precisely, I came like once or may be twice in a week, and at some times in a month.

People at Bimbel always gasped at the fact at I would retake the exam.

Most thought I was doing an ungrateful and silly deed for not just staying in Dentistry.

There were much more comments than supports.

So, I thought it would be best for me not telling any one about the plan.

Just keep it to myself, my family, and close friends.

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Now, here I am typing in my rent-room in Jati,Padan.

The day Mom left me to go back to Medan, it was my Ospek day.

So, when I arrived , my room was empty and dark.

It's sad how you thought you'd be just fine by yourself, and suddenly it just wasn't ok.

And, if my family calls me, it always fells like crying.

Crying to the fact that my family is only a four-membered-family, and now I'm away and alone.

Crying to the fact that I miss my Seksay Cia, my most-of-the-time-I-cant-make-sense-of  Mom, and my not-spending-much-time-talking-with Dad. 

And there are these three girls I also miss.

My friends, my sisters, Uci,There,Mumus.

I remembered the time we said what made us so close was that "We all seek for attention. And we all care for one another."

So, no one was put aside.

And, there's Dea, my bestfriend, who is now in Bali, for studying Food Engeenering.

Such a long step she took, and a brave one also.

And, my sister, Kak Abeth, to whom I'm still sorry for didn't make it to meet up on my last day in Medan.

I also miss you sister. 

Sorry for that time.

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Padang is not a big city nor metropolitan. And it's much smaller compared to Medan.

But, I'm here not for the city. I'm here to study, to go back to Medan with "MD" titled at the and of my name.

What I know for sure now is that no matter if  the ones you expect to support your plan say NO. Or even if a total stranger tells you NO. But if you know for sure what and why you want it, just do it.

At least if we make mistake,it's our own. 

It's better to fail, than to give up before the battle even starts.

It's better to hope and believe all the things in God than letting people's thoughts to corrupt your guts.

And this what my physiology doctor said when we were studying about Nervous System back in Dentistry : 

" If you are to make a choice between a FIGHT-OR-FLIGHT condition, and if it's still possible, ALWAYS choose to FIGHT. Don't run away but FIGHT!"

This is Sera. She's from Papua and studying Medicine too. We share the same house now but different room. :)

            

Heheh..every one has SOME WISH TO-WORK-FOR LIST right? :p

To Make My Own

Hei bloggies!
Sorry, I've been on a dormancy for like half a year.. :/

It's already june.
So many things I can't explain in my posts happened.
But, they don't really matter.
I figure they just were there to help me understand what I want, who I am, and how I want to reach them.

I'm about to take big turns.
To finally answer people with " BECAUSE I WANT IT."
To finally start doing what I love.
To finally be the man of my life.

People will surely judge,comment,or just simply not give a care.
They always do.

But for those people I love and concern about,

Let me do what I want.
You may think I make silly decissions.
But, I don't wanna regret not taking the chances just because people's opinions.
If it turns out to be hardship, just be there for me.

I want this.
And whatever comes after making this decission, I know I'm never alone.
There's nothing to fear of.

100 Songs

Hello fellas! :D
It'sMarch already!
How time flies!! :p

So, uhh today I got to spent my afternoon with my girlfriend/sister/bestfriend/soulmate, Almadea. ;)
These past 2 weeks have been chhheeraaaazzzyy,super busy weeks for all  Faculty of Dentistry students.
So, meeting with Dea today was like having a glass of pure water after a long run. :)


Me : "Jadi, kita udah mau tujuh tahunan lah ya De?"
Dea : "Iya juga ya..dari SMP.udah 6 setengah tahun lah.."
Me : "Langgeng ya kita. Aku udah siap ketemu keluargamu kok De!" ;)
         *genggam tangan Dea*

:D

Me : " Jadi ntar ada cake nya lah ya?"
Dea : " Ada lah kalau cake, tapi gak pake lilin kayak kau."
Me : " Hah?Kok gak pake lilin?"
Dea : " Emang semua orang suka niup lilin banyak-banyak kayak kau Dys?!" :p


#At our class
Uci : "Dys, tolong dulu ngomongnya jangan naik satu oktaf!!"
Tere : " Apa pulak satu oktaf, dua oktaf itu!"
Aku : " Emang aku kalau ngomong kek gitu ya wak?"
Tere : "Iya loh!! Sampek kalau kau sms, rasanya sms mu itu bersuara kayak kau!" 
          *niruin isi sms aku pake suara cempreng*
          "BRAII!!!! TERRRRR!! WAKK!!!"
Uci : "Iya udah kayak pesan multimedia tiap nerima sms kau Dys!Bersuara gitu!" 

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I think what I just learnt is that I just have to let it be. 

Last month, I spent too much time thinking and worrying about one thing, which actually is not that big deal.

And, at the end of the day, a good perspective is always necessary.

 :)

Flowers and Candles

Hi bloggies! :)

I'm currently having semester break. But next Monday I'll be back on track. :p

I really hope you all are having great time, and also it's February, month of love.

Enjoy yourself and have a wonderful Valentine's day with your family, boyfriend/girlfriend, bestfriends, your loved ones. :-)

Dear you, can I get new ones? Roses maybe? ;)

A two-way thing

Happy New Year my blog. :)

I hope this year will be a better, more prosperous year for all of us. :D

So, I know it's not exactly what I usually talk about in blog, but I feel like writing about it.

But,there's something I just realised because of this one movie, Don Jon.

Love is a two-way thing.
It can not and should not be one-sided.

Truth be told, most girls (may be included me) dream of a happily-ever-after-movie love story.

But the truth, there ain't no such thing as perfection, neither the individuals nor the process.

So, I guess it's best to understand that the person you are in a relationship with, is someone who definitely has differences from you.

And if you're willing to know him/her better, than try to understand and accept him/her the way he/she is.

And uh..about the movie,Don Jon, I'm not saying it's perfection.But I'm saying, may be you could watch it, and take some messages from it. And it's better for you to watch it if you're already 18 or above. :) 

Good night blog. 

Mr. Joseph Gordon-Levvit, actor-writer-director of don Jon.