What's SUB??

Hi everyone!

Today I'd really like to talk about consciousness...and its sub.

I love them both..I mean gua harus bener-bener sadar dan alert kan tiap kali mau ganti perban pasien, mau cabut jahitan, atau mau jadi asisten 1 di OK. Bu. But, there's a loophole somewhere in my brain (I can sense it 😁 ), so sometimes the "sub" is showing up. 

Biasanya sub bakalan muncul when I'm too tired, or full with thoughts, or both...I am too tired of thinking and then I fell a sleep in the middle of asking questions to myself.

Sub, in my case, beberapa kali muncul sebagai pesan yang "aku kira aku udah balas", atau "apaan sih balasan gua ga jelas banget", atau that type of "I wish I did't send" message.

Zaman dulu banget di SMA :

Mr. M : "Kalau menurut prediksi saya... soalnya bakal kayak gini..."

Me : "Apa? Istri Bapak?" #Dengan posisi duduk bangku kedua dari depan, dan suara Batak gua yang bisa kedengeran sekelas.

Louis : #temen sebangku "Prediksi Gladys.Prediksi."

Mr. M : " Wah...berarti yang ada di kepalanya istri Bapak aja ya..."

Sekelas : " HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHA...."

Sub is like the wild, honest, and raw version of my reaction.

I like her.

And I know she's good.

Trying to tell me what's really going on inside, cuz' most of the time, I choose not to show what's really deep down, until it start to crack, and the inside can't no longer hold it, it turns into mental break-down.

Mai : " Kenapa emangnya Glad kalau semua orang tau apa yang kamu rasa?"

Glad : " Gak Mai...Aku gak mau orang lain tau sisi lemahku. Aku cuman mau mereka tau Gladys yang mereka lihat. Aku cuman bakal nunjukkin yang aku rasain, semuanya ke orang terdekat, yang aku percaya."

Sub juga muncul in hunches, gut feelings, voice in my head, and dreams.

I used to think this was all a you're-kidding-me kinda thing.

But no babe, it's true...and to sharpen them, you gotta train your consciousness to start believing in the unseen.

Kalau kata Dea : "PIPI KAU KENAPA DYS???!"
Honestly, No idea my friend..... -__-

And this hits the deepest and hardest.
Happy wedding to this couple, A true love. 💕💕💕

Note : In most of the times and generally speaking, sub bisa juga keluar if your under the influence, like whatever the kind of influence you're taking, either it's drugs, alcohol, or love.
But,  from what I learn, you can always anticipate.
If you know your sub is just way too strong than your ratio, then stay away from the circumtances enabling it taking control. Or train your consciousness to be stronger than the sub.

Dek...Dek...Dek..DEK!!!

Hallooww All!!
Hope y'all doing life wonderfuly, thriving, living all your dreams!

Post kali ini spesial banget..pake dua telor mata api setengah mateng, cuz' I havent had breakfast yet 👯😇😅
Post ini adalah hasil selentingan Nadrah, cuz I, Gladys Olivia, had been saying "I'll post a blog" for some days and didn't manage to do it. 👀💩


So here we go.

Nadrah and I dapet Rumah Sakit (Tentara) Reksodiwiriyo sebagai siklus daerah Siklus Bedah kita.
Which setelah hampir seminggu di sini, I can say sangat nikmat dan penuh pengalaman. 💞


Pak Mensuknil : "Area 2 flexor digitorum, nomenslen namanya....kalian pernah dengar?"
Kita berdua : #diam w dalam ati 'ini ngejanya gimana ya...siapa coba yang ngasih nama anak nomeslen? apa dia masih sepupunya Nomensen?" so I googled it..... And...
Gladys : "Ouh.... Namanya NO MAN'S LAND, Pak?! " #sambil ngasih tunjuk hasil googling ke Nadrah
Pak Mensuknil : " Iya...No Man's Land....Bukan tanah siapa-siapa, karna kalau daerah tersebut rusak, ga ada ahli manapun yang bisa bilang dia ngembaliin fungsinya 100%, karna rumitnya susunan daerah itu."

                                                                           

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Di suatu sore, saat kita mau ganti baju, post operasi, di KAMAR GANTI DOKTER.
Me : #singing
Nadrah : "Akhirnya selesai juga...."

Tiba-tiba...

Suara : "Dek..dek...kalian mau ganti baju? Saya masih di dalam Dek. Mau bagi-bagi rezeki kalian, Dek? Saya ga perlu rezeki kalian Dek...hehehe" #Sambil jalan keluar dari kamar ganti

Ternyata itu konsulen kita...keluar dari ruang shalat yang berpintu dan berdinding sendiri di dalam  kamar ganti... 😶😶😶

Nadrah and I : "ahahahahhahaahahaha"
Nadrah : "malu banget njirr....."

NB : semua konsulen bedah kita di RST berjenis kelamin laki-laki

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Beberapa penggunaan Dek dalam kehidupan RST kami..

Konsulen : "Jangan tegang gitu dek...santai aja." #ngoreksi cara pegang trokar kita

Konsulen : " Gapapa dek...saya juga dulu gitu..."

Konsulen : "Sini dek...saya ajarin."

Konsulen : "Pulang lah dek...mau ngapain lagi di sini?"


Beberapa penggunaan Koass dalam kehidupan gua  :

Paramedis  : " KOASSS!!!! Pegang alatnya!!! Mahal itu!!"

Paramedis : " KOASSSS!!!!!!! Alatnya....jatuh ditendang pasien nanti!! Mau ganti?!"

Paramedis : " Yang aktiflah KOASSS!!!!" #Di APN pertama seumur hidup gua...dan gua udah diteriakin kayak nyuri kotak amal mesjid (:


Tapi ini juga yang jadi penghibur...although gua cederung PPG (Pura Pura Gila) kalau udah diteriakin dengan suara yang bisa didengar dari ruang NICU di seberang.
I mean, koass is tough...so we gotta build tougher skin.
and somethimes, bakal ada kejadian konyol dan lucu yang bakal make all the dramas and the screamings bearable. 💕😉


So, hang in there, Darling.
You're doing amazing.💋💋💋

Nadrah

PAPAN KEHIDUPAN KITA

When universe comes to play with you

Me : "Jas, lu inget ga sih waktu lu bilang ke gue 'kali lu pernah minta ke universe untuk buat hiduplu seru' ?"
Najas : "Yaa gue ingat. Napa tu?"
Me : " Gua yakin banget the universe is doing it right now."


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Ada waktu di mana perubahan itu terjadi dalam satu malam, and after that your whole world changed.
How you see things changed.
What you think you knew is barely the truth.
And when that time comes, prepare yourself to enter a new journey.
Like, a whole roller-coaster ride in real life.

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I've always been so private about my private life.
And I will always stay that way.
People have been telling stories and asking questions....
And me and my inner circle just keep our mouths shut.
It ain't easy when people tell wrong stories about you.
It really is not.
But anyway, no body really knows you.
So let it be.
Sooner or later, all cards will be open, and the truth will be out.

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I've been asking Bapa these questions :
"What is it You want me to see God? What is it You want to do with me?"

And after these past few months, I can say :
1. Bapa always gives you signs.
That small voice, that idea popping outta nowhere in your head, that feeling inside your heart. LISTEN TO 'EM.

2. Bapa always provides WHAT YOU NEED.
It may not seem like what you ask for or what you want, but it is what you need. And that's my dear, is more than enough.

3. People sense, people see, people know.