Wednesday, February 15, 2017

G o l d D i g g e r

I have always loved daydreaming.
May be that's why whenever unexpected things come, I used too be so dissapointed when it turn out to be different from the one I daydreamt.

Yuphh.. I'm that naive...but working on it now. ✋πŸ‘€πŸ‘―

Today, we are having one off day due to the public election, but my group had skill-lab at the hospital at 2 p.m.
And I had Cimsa Unand Anniversary plenary meeting before, starting at 10 a.m.

So yeah, didn't feel like holiday....hahhahaha πŸ˜ŽπŸ˜‚

Any way, luckily I'm not feeling too tired today, I still got the energy to do my laundry manually ( read. by hands πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺπŸ˜€πŸ˜€) and made this post.  

I kinda made a deal with myself, that this last one
year of preclinic time, I am not using the laundry service. I am doing it myself, because I'm saving up the money,
so when I finish my medical student and get my general practitioner degree, I have enough money to buy myself my own gold.  πŸ’‹πŸ’“πŸ˜›

I know...I this is 2017 and I'm still saving for gold?!
But whatever! That's my goal. 😎😺😝
And that's the one keeping me motivated to spare my money and put it on my "princess-and-the-frog" piggy-bank. πŸ‘†

So...happy wednesday night people.

May God bless today's elected governor and his vice. πŸ™πŸ™
And happy tutorial-preparing night to all PED14TRICs out there.

And, last but not least, I'm so happy for my loved Mustika has done her seminar proposal!!

So proud of you girl!
May Ucik, There, and I catch up immediately. 


Saturday, February 11, 2017

la tua cantante

Dear diary,

I got up at 5 this morning, so it was only a 2-hour sleep.

I don’t really know where to start, because this week just feels even more challenging in each day.
Last time I posted, it was around 7 p.m.
That day I lost my phone. And I just realized it the next morning ‘cause my alarm usually blasts out early in the morning.

It’s been a busy time since last weekend. It’s been 7-to-4 college time. It’s been 4-till-drop doing CIMSA, doing TNT, doing Comdev Corner preparation, monitoring the rest of the comdevs. It’s been a college-home-college-CIMSA-home cycle. 
And it’s been a-whole-day self-assurance mantra,
 “You can do this, Dys. You can.”
It was the first time that I couldn’t bear it any more, so I rushed home from college. And just cry…

“ Ya Bapa, Edys ga sanggup lagi.
Edys ga sanggup ya Bapa…”

Then a friend came , because we had to print proposals at CIMSA’s secretariat.

Her : “You okay, Dys?”
Me : “I’m fine.”
I did everything to get me through this, cause I promised myself that  I will be tough.
But reading the message just stops my whole world. I was paralized.
And suddenly the tears starts falling. 
And before I even know why they were there, it turnt into a mourning.
“ Ambilah Bapa. Ambil aja semuanya.
Edys ga bisa apa-apa lagi.
Edys ga bisa usaha apa-apa lagi.
Edys ga bisa ubah apa-apa.
Ambil lah Bapa semuanya. Ambil.”
I always believe that work will always help us achieve what we’re praying for.
But this time.

No work could I do.

No words could I use to decribe my feelings right now.
It’s like He’s the only one who can turn this around. 

Or it’s like the world is asking me to see life as it is,
sections, separations, rules we don’t even know why, ones that bound us.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Dear Future Me

Today, 6th february 2017, I felt so occupied on CIMSA.
I couldn't had any call time with my famiy last Thursday till Saturday.
Nor could I get a good sleep.

How preparing for Training New Trainer Region 2 took all my time from right after tutorial till 10 p.m.
Then on Sunday, I had Samangaik Comdev Corner's preparation from 11 a.m to 4 p.m.
Meanwhile, I had tutorial today at 8 a.m. and the clean laundry that hasn't been ironed still laying on my bed.
And now, I'm typing on my laptop just right after I reached home from Samangaik's performance practice while waiting for chat-meeting on Skype for Community Development Coordinators of CIMSA.

In case one day you feel like helpless and tired, remember these days.
Remeber this time of the year.
When you have to walk by yourself, go by yourself, manage your feelings, manage your time, control your reactions to others, and indeed, you managed to do it all, you've passed it.
And I'm sure you can and you will pass this one too, 
no matter what it is.

Sunday, January 29, 2017


Hello everyone! πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹πŸ‘‹πŸ‘―πŸ‘―πŸ‘―
As you can see in the tittle, I'd like to do movie-reviews today..

1. M O A N A

Actually it's been 2 months I guessed since I watched Moana with Oliph.
The movie is a good way to teach every one, children, young adults, and even parents about dreams, beliefs, and that little voice inside your heart.

If any of you haven't watched it, I do recommend it.
Go watch it with friends, family, and even your loved ones. ❤ πŸ‘ͺ πŸ‘«

And the soundtrack, How Far I'll Go is such a catchy and easy-to-sing-to one.


This one I watched on a movie night with Nadrah.
It was such  a surprised that they played it in Padang, and I'm grateful for that.
I am not a drama musical fan. The only musical I watched is High School Musical when I was still in Junior and High School. πŸ˜†πŸ˜†

At first, I was still anticipating if I was gonna sleep in the middle.
But it turned out to be a G R E A T MOVIE.
It's not melodramatic like crying over love and heart-break and stuff.
It's you, the audience, who will feel the sadness, the disappointment, the happyness.
They end it in such a great way, that I was sent home with this :

" In life. Sometimes, while searching for our true selves and persuing our dreams, we meet the one that makes us fall in love, makes us chase our dream even harder. And in some stories, we might end up together. Just sometimes. "

3.  2  S T A T E S

Now this one is actually a 2014 movie.
First time I watched it was on last December in Oliph's room.
And I'm not sure whether I was crying because of the movie itself, or because I feel like it was speaking up my feelings and story.
But the first time, I was freaking crying like a kid since the scene Khris proposed the whole family.
Duck it!

And I watched it again when I was in Medan.
First time with my FKG girls, and the second time was with Mom and Cia.

This movie is elightening.
Because this kind of 'problem', ethnic, origin, and many else, doesn't just happen in India.
I watch it every single day, between some ethnics in Medan, especially, in Indonesia, generally.
How we make "invisible" prohibition to our kids not to fall play, or in love, or date, and especially marry people from other ethnics.
It also teaches me how marriage is not just about two people getting together, doing stuff together, having kids. It shows me that marriage is a big deal. It's the union of two big families, with different points of view, with expectations and hopes towards their member.

So yeah, you can ask your girl/boyfriend to watch it, and may be find some new points from it.
And even parents can watch it with their young adults family members, and help them build their point of views on relationship, marriage, and cultures.

So that's all.
If you have anything to say, or may be you have also watched the movies I mentioned above, feel free to leave comments.
I would really love to share opinions and favourites scenes. πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜Ž

Wednesday, January 25, 2017

[ DIY ] My Kind of White Sneakers

Hello everyone! πŸ‘€πŸ‘‹

I'd been wanting a pair of white sneakers for months, until I searched for the kind that I want on Shopee.

I, honestly, was looking for a cheap one, because when I checked the branded ones, they just were way beyond my budget, or what I consider normal for me.

So this is the one I have now.
When I searched on Shopee, I really wasn't looking for anything "brandy".
I mean, I wasn't loooking for a pair of sneakers that resemble the original ones.
So when they did arrive, I was thinking about making them "my taste".

The truth is, I appreciate originality.
So I will not wear anything "resembling-the-original" one just so I feel proud or confident.
It's better for me to wear a non-branded, than trying to copy certain brand by buying the "plagiarized" one.


Thanks to my 2017 Go Girl! Journal πŸ’•πŸ’—πŸ’‹


On my OSCE day, when I was in Psychiatry Station.

Tugas : Melakukan wawancara psikiatri ke pasien wanita dengan waham cemburu terhadap suaminya.FYI : Dalam waktu 5 menit (!!!)

Me : Oh begitu Bu. Tapi kita kan belum tau kebenaran sms tersebut. Siapa tau itu sms nyasar.
Pasien : Tapi saya yakin Dok.
Me : Tapi kita kan sudah dengar penjelasan Bapak Bu. Coba kita percayai dulu.........
# I don't remember what else I said, until suddenly

Me : #dalemAti  Ya Bapa!Sudahi OSCE ini! Keluarkan Edys dari stase ini ya Bapa.πŸ˜ŒπŸ˜…πŸ™ˆ

One of my nights with Cia 

Me : Jadi kau ga mau kuliah di luar Medan nanti?
Her : Aku berpikir kan, aku kan gak kek kau, cerita sama Mamak. Nanti kalau aku kuliah di luar, ada masalahku, terus aku malas cerita, stress sendiri lah aku. Kalau di sini kan, aku ada masalah pun misalnya, tapi ada mamak-bapak di rumah, jadi lebih ringan aja rasanya.

Well, my little sister is not so little any more.

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

M a k i n g L e t t e r s

There're many ways to tell feelings, but for now I'm gonna keep them in written forms. It lets me figure my true feelings and at the same time lets the sanity come.

Tomorrow I'll be having OSCE for the 5th semester. Time really flies that fast. Next semester will be about final papers (skripsi.) Man! Co.ass is just a year away. Amen to that. :)

I can not choose which one looks more retarded πŸ˜πŸ˜€πŸ˜Ž

Dear self,
actions do speak louder than words.
How blind and amateur we were.