baby steps in a full-grown adult

I knew healing was never linear...

but experiencing it firsthand, the ups and downs, is so much different from knowing...much more intense, much more perplexing, and sometimes doubting..

I can't tell if right now I'm fully healed or not

what I know is I know myself better now, my emotions, my thoughts.

I understand them better now.
Not just the Gladys I paint for other people to see, but the Glados I know deep inside, the true gladys, the one I tried for sooo long to hide, to protect, to paint in certain ways, my ways.

well..well..

if it's not the wandering mind that can't sleep although the body is aching and tired..

until next time,

stay alive and keep on living, bish.
I love you, truely...

xo
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