Water Under The Bridge

" If you're gonna let me down, Let me down gently

                  Don't pretend that you don't want me

           Our love ain't water under the bridge."                                            Adele -  Water under The Bridge

Hi peeps!
How's life? Wonderful, I hope. :)

It's too long since I wrote my fave things.
So today's post will be about my recent "dope" things :

1. Adele's 25 Album
I downloaded the whole album when I was in Jakarta last week. And I just listened to it today. Turnt out I'm so into Water Under The Bridge. I love the intro, it sounds so "inviting" ;)

2. Chemical Peeling
So my acne out-break has been on its "challenging" phase. XD
And I've been on some pills given by the dermatologist, who is also my lecturer, for almost a month. And last Monday, my visit was to have a chemical peeling.
It IS always an excrutiating pain when the peeling is put on your face.
And I gotta be honest, if I could scream, I would. But since it's a clinic, and there are other patients, I don't want them thinking the doctor is skinning me or something. :p

So yeah, after the undeniable pain, the chemical peeling works beautifully gross. :)
It makes your skin to literally peel off, so the dead skin can be regenerated.
You will look a lot like a snake on its scale-changing phase.

Close enough XD

3. Empowered me
I've had problems with self-worth, self-esteem for long time due to underlying predisposising events.
It's funny that my out-break problem was just a precipitating agent.
( I learnt this term on dr. Arina's psychosomatic class ) ;)

Funny how my most-worried thoughts, actually came true.
I went to CIMSA's National Leadership Summit in Jogja and CIMSA's Training New Trainer Regional in Riau with my still-inflamed-all-over skin.

It's surprising how I was as calm as sleeping baby in a normally-traumatizing experience, yet I was crazy on thought about taking this semester off because I couldn't handle "people looking, asking, and symphatizing about my condition".
Silly, right?

From what happened this whole one month, I get to learn, a lot.

I was mentally sick. And I am very blessed to have myself, my Mamak, Cia, Bapak, Jo around.

I am who I am now. And I accept my past, my present, and am thrieving for my future now.

And I finally got what Mamak always tells me.
You can't just take the "goodness" from God.
What if He gives you "hardship"? Then, He's no kind anymore?
If this is a sweet thing, take it. If this is bitterness, you still have to take it.

I see now, I can't have all things the way I want, the way I think good for me.
Because I'm a f*cking human. What do I know about life?
All I can do is make sure I AM JOYFUL IN MY EVERY CONDITION. And IT'S ON ME, not any other person's obligation.

And I'm so into empowering myself.
After my CIMSA's NLS and TNT, I know I want more, more empowerment.
To actually make SDGs into real action.
To live my dream.

NLS in Jogja

NLS Farewell Party 

Inflamed in Taman Buah, Jogja

C A M O U F L A G E

I'm officially a novice CIMSA trainer. ;)

Winter is coming

HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone. :)

Can't believe how fast 2015 went, but it did.

I know it's like I'm only blogging now when I'm about to have my block's exam, which at the time is about endocrine system, to be precise diabetic, thyroid, adrenal, metabolic syndrome, and nutrition. I actually find myself "having-more-information-receptors" on urgent situation like this than on study-week when I rarely finish my LO. :P

I do read, and study. But, eventually, I'm gonna see the bigger picture at the 6th week when I'm about having exam on 7th week. But, the information didn't all vanish after the MCQs, some sticks, and the other, yuph they vanish.
I guess that's the reason why I, and I guess everyone need to read.

Anyway, I was home for christmas.
And I found myself seeing how real patients do in real life, and kinda laughed to see how true House reacts to all his patients.

Anyway, I've been having this acne problem which I don't know why.
It led me to reading EBM articles on what drug should be used to "treat" acnes.
Because, when this problem first came, I went to see a dermatologist, and the treatment WORKED. But, I gotta be honest, they also MAKE MY MOTHER WORKS MORE to pay the bill. The I guess, I gotta see if there's another way, an evidence-based, non invasive, non-money-raping treatment.

So, I guess I'm gonna do the review after this thing works. :)

Again, HAPPY NEW YEAR.
HAPPY HOLIDAY.
HAPPY STUDYING!! :)

CIMSA intern-project day -->

 Me cutting a boy's preputium. #niceOne :)

xoxo, Glados  

Perceived DD

Me : " Tungguin aku nyampek ya Mak, baru mulai acaranya.."
Mom : " Iya Nak, kami tungguin pun."

Hi all.
Sorry for the silence for such long time.
I would love to tell stories.

I'm currently doped with House MD.
It's a 2004-originated serie about a doctor, named Gregory House.
This sceptical-yet-at-the-same-time-brilliant son of his mother really makes my adrenaline runs out everytime the case gets desperately unfigured. 

I had my first WDD, it was hectic and honestly there're a lot of corrections for next year's one.
Mean while, we are preparing ourselves for SPRING, it's a free circumcissions held by SCOPH CIMSA UNAND to the elementary sutudents in a selected area.
It'll take place in Koto Baru on December 20th.

And uh...
Sometime, we try so hard to hold on to what we believe-what we hope for- because we're not ready to bear the falling-apart just at the time. 
Although we know exactly how it'll end, and sadly it doesn't even lessen the feeling.

Wellcome to the world.

Pick your own differential diagnoses.

At the end of the day, letting things fall by themselves and hoping for the best is all we have.

Restless Heart

You know, our heart (mind) keeps on thinking and trying to figure which way to take, which decision's gonna bring more great things (in our counts).
But I think once we foccuss on just one thing, we (unconsiously) have  hindered ourself to experience the UNEXPECTED.

I was afraid and confused about what I'm gonna be, which position should I apply for, but I figure that I don't wanna close the gate to a whole new ride, to new stories with different people, to new perspectives.

I'm ch-ch-ch-ch cherry bomb!

Dear diary,
I feel sorry for myself.
For letting me feel so afraid and not knowing what I should do.
Truth be told, being in Medical Faculty is not always an up-in-the-air thing, so not that way.
But, if I had to turn over, I wouldn't know which way to go.
So, let me be a student who just constantly tries to figure out what she wants and doubtlessly loves to write.

Note : I'm happy that I finally managed to refresh the blog. :)
Good night all.
Happy living. :*

IMMORTAL HARVEST

Dear bloggies,

I'm soo happy, more precisely relieved that I HAVE FINISHED MY SPECIFIC CIMSA NATIONAL HRD TEAM JOBDESK!!!

YAYNESS!!

I started doing it on Sunday night and stayed up until 3 a.m. Luckily I was having sleepover at Nadrah's...so I didn't fall asleep on the fisrt hour! XD

And thanks to Jo for helping me make sure that no one of the delegation gets double listed...and Kak Wiry, the national HRD Director of CIMSA.. Yay!! :D

Now, that I think about my not-going-October-Meeting-of-CIMSA in Semarang, it's a bit of sorrow.

But, I've made my mind, and I'm going home ( Medan ) this week. If I were going to Semarang, no way I could go home too. :p

Of course, I prefer going home (NOW, with some circumtances)....

Since by going home :

1. I GOT FREE FOOD
I know for those who live with their parents will find this a joke. But man, even if you are not facing money deficiency, HOME-MADE FREE FOOD HAS NO DEFEAT!! 

2. I GOT TV, REFRIGERATOR, MY MOTOR
And I get to wear my sassy skirts!! hahahah ;) 

3. I AM CURRENTLY CRAVING FOR RAMEN AND BURGERS
Yes there are ramen shops and burgers available in Padang..but whatever..every thing tastes wayyy better at  home town. XD

ME :     #sending Harvest link to my closest friends and Mamak via LINE

              " Mak..liat..keren kali bakery nya..Pengen punya kek gitu nanti..."

Mamak : " Iya nak.Keren. Kalau punya yang kayak gitu, mamak bagian yang rasainnya                   aja lah.."

I've always been IN LOVE with sweet food, especially cake, desserts, bread, chocolate,

So big my love for sweetness that it has infected Dea 

Dea : " Kau tau Dys,aku udah ketularan kebiasaan makan manismu. Kawan-kawanku                ngerasa aneh aku makan manis sama yang manis juga. Orang itu belum ketemu            kau aja."

At the momet, I'm in the middle of my Reproductive Block exam...and I just had exam this morning.

The next exam is on Friday and I'm flying to Medan in the afternoon.

Hopefully everything goes smoothly.

And...you know what I was trying to have polite introduction with someone..then I guess I should have just cut straight to the point..with asking whether he would teach me how to do Corel Draw and Photo Shop. 

Currently on repeating-mode 

harvestcake.com

FTALE

 

Hi blog!

I think I've sain a gazilllion times how I'm sorry for not having written anything, but it's just that having your own personal journal makes you forget a "public" one. XD

Some recaps about life..
I've been back here, in Padang, for a month now.
And at the very moment, I am studying complication in pregnancy, specifically and medically speaking Pre-eclampcia and Eclampcia.

And,the fact that September is coming always thrills me..hahahah..
I know...I know..how childish of me.
But the truth is I love my birthday.
Not about the presents, although who wouldn't be happy to receive a new free thing. hahaha.
But, it's a day of celebrating my existing, and a day to remind me that I've had another one-year journey. ;)

So...
I would love to share about fairytale now.
Dea loves BARBIE, I LIKE BARBIE.
But, I never love her/ them.
It's not her blonde hair, or skinny body that makes me jealous, it just I don't get her that way. #apaSIHdys -_-"

Anyway...
My fairytale kinda movie is FRIENDS WITH BENEFIT.
I know I've posted about this movie like when I was still on my third year in high school.
But I'M IN LOVE WITH IT.
And stupidly cry watching it.

I feel like chanelling the movie in some spots..hahahha..
Or maybe that's just how I see relationship should be..openess,freedom,passion,honesty,history, and irony of life.

You know I join  LIGAMENT, an english club in FK, and we had our meeting last Friday.
We were discussing about anger and ambition.

When I was asked about what in the modern life that makes me angry, I answered
" The fact that people like to mind others' bussiness. Being so nosy about others."
And I also said " I don't want people to know my private life that much. It's like the less you share, the less people know, the more curious they become, the more valuable you become."

Weird thing is I always love writing.
To express my feeling. It was never something to be nervous about for me to write.
And writing this sometimes makes me wonder if some people read and start to wonder what happened to this girl.hahahah..
But I managed to not giving a care anymore.
writing makes me happy, and so I do it.

You know those are just my jungling mind.