Bale Pulang

I think it's finally safe enough to slow down and not rush anything,

to let myself be the sassy glados that I am,

to do the small, non-medical things I always thought about, start going to the gym again, taking drum lesson, weekly girls night-out, anything other that only doing residency stuff.

Not to underestimate the program, it's just, focusing solely on it has not done me any good...took a toll on my mental and physical health that I needed to take some time off from it.

But, all is well now..

And we're starting fresh in a few days...

finger crossed everything goes smoothly

training season's over...

Dear diary, 
if we all hold the power to creat the life we've always dreamnt of, what would be stopping us?
ourselves?
our self-doubts?
or our inner critics?

Anyway, might be crazy-bold end tell the universe what I want and need...
or in a more christian way, ask Abba for what I want from my deepest heart.

"training season's over..."

(they) hate to see your heart breaks

 

Me: "Apa bedanya aku yang sekarang dengan yang setelah pulang dari Medan kemarin?" 
Him: "Beda aja. Kamu sekarang lebih lepas, lebih bahagia kelihatannya. Ga tau apa karena kemarin itu akhirnya menyadari bahwa itu gak enak, atau kenapa."
Me: "Hmm, lebih karena aku menyadari bahkan di saat titik terendahku, saat aku benar-benar merasa terhilang, Tuhan melindungi aku, jagai aku. Dan aku tersadar seberapa aku didukung oleh semuanya."

Dear bloggies,
It's been quite some time after the last post, isn't it?

I did write in one of 2026 posts asking God to bring new characters into my life, to give me a plot twist.
Well, He came through, just like He always does, ahahhahaha
And I would love to give Him all the glory, because even though it was heavy, painful, and I felt lost at that time, it forced me to face my own sabotage, to be honest and work towards true self of gladysglados.

I know this will be another long journey, but there's this calmness in my heart, for I know that this chapter will bring out good, because HE is working on my behalf.

anyway, this song popped up in my head out of nowhere.
and we all know Hayley's great vocal range.