Homework(s)

I always knew that residency was gonna be tough, but boy was I underestimating what tough could mean.

So for now, I'm taking a rest, while doing well-being homework.

One of which is five things I love/admire about Gladys.

Dang, losing your keys is a small, normal thing, but losing yourself, losing sense of who you are a person, losing sights of your dreams and hopes, that's different and definitely not normal.

So meanwhile, I'm gonna list down these traits and while waiting for my mind to calm and see clearly, I'll do the mundane daily stuff, doing the chores, hitting the gym, going out to the cafe, reading, and may be writing, again.

I'd like to chant my fave mantra one more time:

For everything that had happened,  I thank You.

For everything that took place today, I thank You.

For everything that the future has for me, I thank You in advance. 

Finding the right stride

Tuhan, makasih udah mengizinkan Edys sekolah lagi.
Edys bersyukur untuk kesempatan menimba ilmu ini.
Edys bersyukur untuk kesempatan belajar banyak ini.
Edys bersyukur untuk kesempatan merasa bodoh, menangis, merasa berat, merasa ga yakin ini.
Karena Edys jadi bergantung penuh sama Bapa.

Tuhan, kalau boleh Edys memohon, tolong temani Edys menjalaninya.
Tolong ajar Edys, pimpin Edys, mampukan Edys.


Bapa, buat pintu yang Edys harapkan terbuka untuk Edys.
Bapa lah yang membukakannya.
Bapalah yang membawa Edys ke ruangan yang Edys doakan, kalau memang itu sesuai rencana dan rancangan Bapa.
Edys ga kenal siapa-siapa, Edys ga punya siapa-siapa, dan Edys anak-Mu yang banyak buat salah dalam hal ini.
Tapi arahkan, bukakan, sampaikanlah Edys di ruangan itu.

Dalam nama anak-Mu Tuhan Yesus Kristus, Edys nyatakan amin.