Anyway everyone...
HI!HELLO!!
how y'all doing? 😉☺️
Let's talk about bestfriends.
Like what part do they play in our life.
I mean..most of the time we are so happy to have them because we associate having them with good time, good memories, like laughter and joy.
This is not wrong...I mean everyone has different sorting and classification system of human relationship.
It's just while I'm doing this Pediatric department, and I swear, I love all the babies I get to see...tickle...even hold... it's just I'm also having deep mental stress that every Sunday afternoon-night, around 6 p.m., I be not wanting to do anything, cuz' tomorrow I'mma have to come to the hospital again... :'(
That's just bad...and it's actually rooted to my fear towards my supervisor. Like I be imagining having to meet and speak to my supervisor, and I just go ":( I'm scared".
It was so concerning that my bestfriends called me, cuz' right now the three of us are separated in different regions and timing of the country...
Oli : "APA SIH MASALAH KAU SAMA IBUK TU?"
Like tanpa ada 'halo' 'hola, como esta' atau ba bi bu..she just madly yelled at me...
And at that time I had de ja vù moment...like I used to be the one calling and yelling at the other party, now I'm the one being yelled at.
Then... there's Mai yang bener2 ngambil waktu buat video call and just without any precautions, just 'got in my house' and wreck everything.
Mai : " Glad...kam itu pintar...Aku sedih loh bilang ini...Kam itu pintar tapi kam ga bisa buat keputusan yang benar.
Aku kenal kam. Aku tau kalau kam sedang damai atau enggak.
Kalau kam memang mau keluar, ya keluar.
Tapi jangan kek gini.
Jelasin alasan kenapa kam harus pulang, jelasin alasan kam.
"Bu, nenek saya meninggal, saya mau ada di sana untuk menghormati Nenek saya untuk terakhir kalinya dan memberi dukungan ke Ayah saya."
Ya udah kalau nanti ga diterima, kalau dipermasalahkan ya udah.
Tapi jangan jadikan izin ini alasan untuk melarikan diri.
Kalau kam memang mau keluar, lansung bilang
"Bu, saya mau mengundurkan diri."
Kalau ditanya kenapa, bilang
"Karna menurut saya, saya kurang ilmu untuk masuk Anak."
Kasih jawaban sama orang sampai orang terdiam Glad, sampai dia ga bisa nanya lagi. Jangan mau ngejalanin sesuatu sebagai pelarian. Tapi jalanin karna kam udah tau itu risikonya.
Jadi kalau pun ga dibolehin, disuruh ngundurin dirilah, kam bisa bilang
"Aku tahu ini risikonya. Tapi aku siap jalaninnya, karna aku mau ngasih penghormatan terakhir untuk Opungku, dan itu prinsip aku."
And I swear my face went ugly tight waktu dengar itu awalnya....But then I remember..they are my bestfriends, they will slap me, kick me, punch me, if I go out of the line, if I'm not on the right track, cuz' they love me deep enough to not let me mess up my life and stray.
So...if you have people yang emang bakal blak-blakan ngomong sesuatu yang bakal nyakitin kamu, tapi itu bener, dan deep down kamu juga tahu itu bener, please let your ego and walls down...and let them come and cabut dan buang semua sampah yang kamu simpan 'in your house'.
Let them in.
Let them see.
Let them correct.
Cuz' it's all for the best of you.
And ini bagian termahal dari sebuah hubungan.
Untuk jadi babak belur untuk kebaikanmu.
Untuk jadi babak belur untuk balik ke jalan/pandangan/sikap yang benar.
Untuk jadi babak belur untuk memenuhi 'panggilan'-mu.
P.S. safe flight for me.
Bout to pay some cultural calling and duty for the lat time for my Opung. 🙏🏻🌻🕊️
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