Lost Stars

  And God,tell us the meaning

  Youth is wasted on the young its hunting season

  And this lamb is on the hunt searching for meaning

   But all we are lost stars trying to light..light up the dark

- Adam Lavine, Lost Stars

Hi bloggies!

How you all doing? :)

Hope all of you are well. 

So, I just moved to Padang,Sumatera Barat, to study Medicine.

It's still part of Indonesia though, in case you don't know where Padang is. :p

I retook the SBMPTN and, with all praises and thanks to God, made it to my first option, Medical School of Andalas University.

I've been here since August 4, so it's been a week now. Mom accompanied me until last Trustday.

One of the reasons why I never posted anything for the last couple months was this, me retaking the SBMPTN. Truth is, since the second semester in Dentistry, I've registered to a Bimbingan Belajar, but  because of the schedules with my classses in Dentistry, I didn't come often. Or precisely, I came like once or may be twice in a week, and at some times in a month.

People at Bimbel always gasped at the fact at I would retake the exam.

Most thought I was doing an ungrateful and silly deed for not just staying in Dentistry.

There were much more comments than supports.

So, I thought it would be best for me not telling any one about the plan.

Just keep it to myself, my family, and close friends.

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Now, here I am typing in my rent-room in Jati,Padan.

The day Mom left me to go back to Medan, it was my Ospek day.

So, when I arrived , my room was empty and dark.

It's sad how you thought you'd be just fine by yourself, and suddenly it just wasn't ok.

And, if my family calls me, it always fells like crying.

Crying to the fact that my family is only a four-membered-family, and now I'm away and alone.

Crying to the fact that I miss my Seksay Cia, my most-of-the-time-I-cant-make-sense-of  Mom, and my not-spending-much-time-talking-with Dad. 

And there are these three girls I also miss.

My friends, my sisters, Uci,There,Mumus.

I remembered the time we said what made us so close was that "We all seek for attention. And we all care for one another."

So, no one was put aside.

And, there's Dea, my bestfriend, who is now in Bali, for studying Food Engeenering.

Such a long step she took, and a brave one also.

And, my sister, Kak Abeth, to whom I'm still sorry for didn't make it to meet up on my last day in Medan.

I also miss you sister. 

Sorry for that time.

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Padang is not a big city nor metropolitan. And it's much smaller compared to Medan.

But, I'm here not for the city. I'm here to study, to go back to Medan with "MD" titled at the and of my name.

What I know for sure now is that no matter if  the ones you expect to support your plan say NO. Or even if a total stranger tells you NO. But if you know for sure what and why you want it, just do it.

At least if we make mistake,it's our own. 

It's better to fail, than to give up before the battle even starts.

It's better to hope and believe all the things in God than letting people's thoughts to corrupt your guts.

And this what my physiology doctor said when we were studying about Nervous System back in Dentistry : 

" If you are to make a choice between a FIGHT-OR-FLIGHT condition, and if it's still possible, ALWAYS choose to FIGHT. Don't run away but FIGHT!"

This is Sera. She's from Papua and studying Medicine too. We share the same house now but different room. :)

            

Heheh..every one has SOME WISH TO-WORK-FOR LIST right? :p