A L E P H

Hi everyone.

I do hope you're doing well in the midst of this pandemic situation.

My own self-quarantine has been going pretty well, I find a way to be productive (aka having fun ngebacot di status WA), and literally just sleeping in and forgetting time. LOL

But, I'm working on it, to be more productive at this very situation.

It's already 7 days of self-quarantine and 14 days of Easter's praying and fasting.

It was jam-jam terberat, which is jam 3-6 sore, and I found myself fighting so hard untuk stay faithful and motivated in this fasting.

At that time, I also realised how uncertainty and anxiety are surounding all aspects of our life, especially with current condition.

In my personal life, the uncertainty of final exam, which also means uncertainty of graduation, uncertainty of when I'll be truly free to leave Padang, for good.

At the other hand, the fact that I am very certain I can't go home, although I'm dying wanting to.

For if I go back home and there's possibility of locking down in Medan, I might not be able to go back to Padang, to take care of my administration stuff or even take the final exam.

 
Tapi, mungkin ini yang jadi pelajaran dari pandemik ini.
To have faith and peace in the midst of uncertainty and anxiety storms.
Juga untuk menyadari hal-hal yang emang paling penting dalam hidup, like taking care of yourself, your family, and closed ones.

Nadrah and I have agreed on this, that part of being an adult is having your ‘introvert’ side having its growth-spurt.

By that, we mean, enjoying ‘some amount of time’ having people around you and really cherishing and feeling recharged on your alone-time.

That doesn’t mean that you don’t like people.

It just means that in order to be fully functioning, you need to have both sides balanced.

And for my fasting ‘challenge’, I figure I should set my focus right.

Untuk ga berpikir I’m fasting just for the sake of fasting, atau for the sake of ‘ritual agama’.

But to set my focus on who I’m aiming to get to know better from this prayer and fasting, which is HIM.

I know this sounds super weird to some people, but I’ve learnt to live with disapprovals or frowns from others, and know who my people are, and what my purposes are.

Any way,

Have a good night.

Sleep tight.

💕💫🙏

   

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