Rewriting Tom

Hi!
it's been intense 2 weeks in Psychiatry department...
For we are part of PINKAN, a national symposium on addiction and mental health.

It crossed my mind as I was sitting at the back seat of my friend's car...

 
If you could rewrite your story,  

would you be brave enough to do so?

Like, would you actually do everything in your effort to make your story in a way your future self would be thankful and proud for you to have done it...
to have the courage to ask for it,
to persue it.

And for once....to just do it, without thinking...do it rightiously.

This song was actually released some years ago..but music video came out earlier this year.. 

The video is actuallyt published version, but I preferably listen to the acoustic one...the lyric video one.

Cycles

Hi bloggies!💕💕💕

Been off for almost a month, due to exams preparation, physical exhaustion, and just lyfe...ahaahahaah

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I am the kind of person who hype about birthdays.
Like not just my birthday, but any one's close to me.
Cuz' in my mind, birthday is a fact that you've been blessed with yet another one year of a whole of things. And it's worth hyping about, celebrated.

But this year, when I remember that my birthday is approaching all that comes up is :

"I can't believe how dark things were. I can't believe it's almost one year of this 23-year-old journey.And I can't believe I did it."

It's just a mix feeling of awe, sadness, and relief, for realizing how strong I can be, how unsure and changing life can be....how the ones you think are your friends can spread bad words about you, without ever checking on you, asking how you're doing in the midst of everything.

I usually have like list of things I would love to do or have for my birthday...
This time, nothing. 

Just plain hope that when September 8th comes, I can greet myself...


"You did it, Dys! You da MVP!!"

Bish, may your heart always knows its worth.

Good morning, Midnight!

Hello everyone!
It's 5 minutes to midnight..and also 5 minutes to July.

So before that...Imma say something..

"Father, I thank You for the month of June.

A lot has happened...

And a lot will happen.

I believe in Your plan..and Your ways.."

I wish I could tell you stuff I really wanna tell you.
But then again, some stuff are better kept to one's self, until it is the time to reveal.
So many things happened... new experiences..and may be a brand new sun.

P.S.

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Undo - Redo - Rewind - Forward

Hi everyone.
June feels just flying by.
By that, I also mean Internal Medicine just feels flying by.
Can't believe it's already 7th week now, only 1 one more week before OSCE and 2 more weeks before long-case.



One day in Glados' room.

Mai : " Glad, boleh aku bawa bonekanya buat di laundry?"
Me  : " Boleh lah Mai. Kan itu punya kam."
Oli  :  #hugging and dragging me "You said I can take what's mine."
Us all : "ahhahahahahahhahahah"
Me  :  " Good one Ol."

And that just made my whole day.
Even lebih dari "Bagus. Pintar." dari konsulen yang lagi visite pasiennya.

 

My comfort-regimen : 1. Hair Combing 2. Thick, fatty ear lobe 3.Hugs

Snacthed it from her

" We are proud of you - G.O."
a present to our dearest bestfriend

It's not as easy as it may look

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HOT.
Humble - Open - Transparent
And it took real courage and vulneribility to be one.

Clapping Back

Kawan  : "Dys, kau tau babi tu makannya apa?!"

Me        : " Kau tau lele tu makannya apa?!"

Kawan  : " Taik."

Me        : " Ha ya udah!"

this is how my friend reacts when I told him I miss eating pork...like miss the aroma, the sweet taste, the crispy skin.... even talking abou it makes me drool.. ;)

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Any way, I have been off for like 2,5 weeks.

Cia was here,in Padang, having her holiday trip.

So I was pretty much busy keeping her 'entertained', making sure of her food and clothes, and taking her out.

Hahahahahaha...

Now that she's not here, it feels a bit lost.

but, I just would like to cherish the memory, the converstions- silly ones, that we had.

And I'm happy that she is now having great time spending her holidy in Pekan Baru.

Self Reflection :

I realise I need to come back 'the routine' I built to get me through stuff.

Not because I'm still in that stuff...or in that situation.

it's just because the routine has helped me calm my self through the scarriest storms in my life.

And I feel like that routine help me connect to the things that are not visible to the eyes.

And that is self-devotional time.

Happy cuz' she NAIK KELAS 😄😂😂

Pamungkas On The Repeat

Well...hallo everyone.

I've been off...due to personal preference of sleeping to posting a blog.
💋😜

This is my last day for my one-week duty in Bukit Tinggi.
I sincerely feel blessed and grateful to get Bukit and also Bu Yun as a preceptor.

Rani says "it's karma", I say it's exactly what I need and want.
A 'push' to really study and make effort.

Since I deactivate my instagram account, now in order to kill time, I usually just go browsing youtube, or reading Brightside, or checking if Diana's posting any new stuff (P.S. Diana, I'm still waiting 😎😗 )

So....my youtube's home page's been showing this Pamungkas singer.
I didn't know him....and for curiosity reason and really just 'nothing to do', I clicked on the video.

And to my surprise, I've been repeating some tracts ever since.


Any way, had this super bizarre dream about snake.
I mean I haven't had 'snaky' dream in like years.
(You know how I always know  say, I have that loophole in my brain and that my sub is always on to something)
Well this one is really odd....like the snake is actually really big. And somehow it was 'staying' in the ceiling this whole time. And in that dream, I 'somehow'  have already known that it's there.
And sorta 'called it out'.
And to my surprise, it came out.
Real big...and if I'm not that 'blind' on animal grouping, it was a python.
But oddly its eyes kinda remind me of human's eyes.

Any way...it was really odd..
May be my sub is just playing its trick again.
Well...we never know.

Well, thought Aladdin's sky wasn't real, till Bukit did some flexing. 💕💕💕

  

          

100% candid, to my defense. 

 Really getting "Cahaya Ilahi" that inspires us to do pictures below...

MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIDZIN.

What gastric juice taught me

Just like gastric juice's circadian cycle,
I think that's how our body handle pain,
either it's phisically or mentally.

The pain is actually still there..
you just get used to it, aka you're at "basal pain" condition.

But sometimes...in the darkest hours, it rises.
Peaking up to some point that now you're conscious,
not just of its being but also the feeling..

Feel like reliving the past...only now in lower intensity.