Pamungkas On The Repeat

Well...hallo everyone.

I've been off...due to personal preference of sleeping to posting a blog.
💋😜

This is my last day for my one-week duty in Bukit Tinggi.
I sincerely feel blessed and grateful to get Bukit and also Bu Yun as a preceptor.

Rani says "it's karma", I say it's exactly what I need and want.
A 'push' to really study and make effort.

Since I deactivate my instagram account, now in order to kill time, I usually just go browsing youtube, or reading Brightside, or checking if Diana's posting any new stuff (P.S. Diana, I'm still waiting 😎😗 )

So....my youtube's home page's been showing this Pamungkas singer.
I didn't know him....and for curiosity reason and really just 'nothing to do', I clicked on the video.

And to my surprise, I've been repeating some tracts ever since.


Any way, had this super bizarre dream about snake.
I mean I haven't had 'snaky' dream in like years.
(You know how I always know  say, I have that loophole in my brain and that my sub is always on to something)
Well this one is really odd....like the snake is actually really big. And somehow it was 'staying' in the ceiling this whole time. And in that dream, I 'somehow'  have already known that it's there.
And sorta 'called it out'.
And to my surprise, it came out.
Real big...and if I'm not that 'blind' on animal grouping, it was a python.
But oddly its eyes kinda remind me of human's eyes.

Any way...it was really odd..
May be my sub is just playing its trick again.
Well...we never know.

Well, thought Aladdin's sky wasn't real, till Bukit did some flexing. 💕💕💕

  

          

100% candid, to my defense. 

 Really getting "Cahaya Ilahi" that inspires us to do pictures below...

MINAL AIDIN WAL FAIDZIN.

What gastric juice taught me

Just like gastric juice's circadian cycle,
I think that's how our body handle pain,
either it's phisically or mentally.

The pain is actually still there..
you just get used to it, aka you're at "basal pain" condition.

But sometimes...in the darkest hours, it rises.
Peaking up to some point that now you're conscious,
not just of its being but also the feeling..

Feel like reliving the past...only now in lower intensity.

John Snow

Me  : #OnThePhone "Halo.Aku masuk kok Mam hari ini....ok..bye"

Uca : "Emang kamu segitu bandelnya ya Dys?Ampek harus diabsen gitu pagi-pagi masuk apa enggak?"

Me  : #Senyum aja #dalam ati 'you know nothing, John Snow.'

Straightening Up

Mai : " Tapi kayak jadi ada 2 skala berbeda gitu Glad..."
Me  : "hmmmm.....iya sih Mai..."

both silent

Me : " Eh Mai...may be the right words are "adulthood" and "maturity". Adulthood memang bisa aja didapat orang waktu dia reach certain age or able to do something society think as "adulthood mater".  Tapi kalau "maturity", it's deeper and harder to measure...Cuman kan di bahasa Indonesia keduanya sama-sama diartikan "dewasa".

Walk me home, wouldn't you?

Mai : "Sedih kan, Glad?"
Me  : "Huh?"
Mai :" Iya..sedih kan Oli mau pindah ni?"
Me  : "Ouh...iya, tapi lebih sedih lagi waktu kam pindah tiba-tiba kemarin. Dan Oli juga udah ada ngasih tau kan ini...jadi udah persiapan. Dan udah ada juga perpisahan yang lebih menyakitkan.."


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Hello everyone.
I can not believe this is already week 8 of Surgery Department, when at first I just really couldn't get through each day without wanting to come straight home right away, and just ditch everything.

So many things happended.
Tapi kayak I've said that too f-ing many times.
But no jokes this time, bener-bener banyak dan ga terduga.
Like a whole plot-twist in just one episode that you missed..ahahahhah

Any way,
aku tahu banget aku orang yang sangat sulit menerima saat sahabat (atau setidaknya, aku yang menganggap dia dan memperlakukan dia sebagai sahabat) tapi ternyata mengecewakan.
Like I used to hold that dissapointment and bitterness for too long..
I used to ask like
"why she just don't appreciate me the way I appreciate her?"
"how could she say something like that about me?'


Gitu juga waktu dulu (like 2 tahun lalu) Mai tiba-tiba pindah kosan, tanpa ada ngasih tau aku sama sekali.
Tiba-tiba, aku pulang dari kampus, her room was already empty.


Kalau sekarang aku ngingat kejadian itu, aku ngerti kenapa I was so hurt...because Mai was such a 'bigger' sister figure I always hold and trust and love...and at that time she just moved out without any preamble or what so ever.

Tapi, sekarang setelah aku Koass, dan aku ngerti situasi yang anak koass hadapi, stress mental, batin, fisik yang kita dapat di koass, aku paham kenapa Mai bisa ngelakuin itu.
Aku paham kenapa Mai bisa ngambil keputusan itu dengan segala situasi di siklusnya kemarin dan di kosan saat itu.

I mean, aku juga udah ngelewatin masa di mana I wasn't even myself.
Like going to the hospital was such a horrifying thing that I had migraine just by getting ready for it.

But, you know what, I see now that masa-masa di mana rasanya things were really painful and uncomfortable, that's when changes take place, when you grow, when you are being shifted.

So now...saat di mana perpisahan seems to be just around every corner, Mai yang udah mau wisuda dokter aja, Oli yang pindah kosan, persahabatan yang udah ga kayak dulu lagi....I can finally say

"It's okay.

I accept it the way it is.

Because if our souls are really best-friends for each other, no distance, nor time will set us apart. 

The universe always has a way to bring same vibration and frequency together. "

What's SUB??

Hi everyone!

Today I'd really like to talk about consciousness...and its sub.

I love them both..I mean gua harus bener-bener sadar dan alert kan tiap kali mau ganti perban pasien, mau cabut jahitan, atau mau jadi asisten 1 di OK. Bu. But, there's a loophole somewhere in my brain (I can sense it 😁 ), so sometimes the "sub" is showing up. 

Biasanya sub bakalan muncul when I'm too tired, or full with thoughts, or both...I am too tired of thinking and then I fell a sleep in the middle of asking questions to myself.

Sub, in my case, beberapa kali muncul sebagai pesan yang "aku kira aku udah balas", atau "apaan sih balasan gua ga jelas banget", atau that type of "I wish I did't send" message.

Zaman dulu banget di SMA :

Mr. M : "Kalau menurut prediksi saya... soalnya bakal kayak gini..."

Me : "Apa? Istri Bapak?" #Dengan posisi duduk bangku kedua dari depan, dan suara Batak gua yang bisa kedengeran sekelas.

Louis : #temen sebangku "Prediksi Gladys.Prediksi."

Mr. M : " Wah...berarti yang ada di kepalanya istri Bapak aja ya..."

Sekelas : " HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHA...."

Sub is like the wild, honest, and raw version of my reaction.

I like her.

And I know she's good.

Trying to tell me what's really going on inside, cuz' most of the time, I choose not to show what's really deep down, until it start to crack, and the inside can't no longer hold it, it turns into mental break-down.

Mai : " Kenapa emangnya Glad kalau semua orang tau apa yang kamu rasa?"

Glad : " Gak Mai...Aku gak mau orang lain tau sisi lemahku. Aku cuman mau mereka tau Gladys yang mereka lihat. Aku cuman bakal nunjukkin yang aku rasain, semuanya ke orang terdekat, yang aku percaya."

Sub juga muncul in hunches, gut feelings, voice in my head, and dreams.

I used to think this was all a you're-kidding-me kinda thing.

But no babe, it's true...and to sharpen them, you gotta train your consciousness to start believing in the unseen.

Kalau kata Dea : "PIPI KAU KENAPA DYS???!"
Honestly, No idea my friend..... -__-

And this hits the deepest and hardest.
Happy wedding to this couple, A true love. 💕💕💕

Note : In most of the times and generally speaking, sub bisa juga keluar if your under the influence, like whatever the kind of influence you're taking, either it's drugs, alcohol, or love.
But,  from what I learn, you can always anticipate.
If you know your sub is just way too strong than your ratio, then stay away from the circumtances enabling it taking control. Or train your consciousness to be stronger than the sub.

Dek...Dek...Dek..DEK!!!

Hallooww All!!
Hope y'all doing life wonderfuly, thriving, living all your dreams!

Post kali ini spesial banget..pake dua telor mata api setengah mateng, cuz' I havent had breakfast yet 👯😇😅
Post ini adalah hasil selentingan Nadrah, cuz I, Gladys Olivia, had been saying "I'll post a blog" for some days and didn't manage to do it. 👀💩


So here we go.

Nadrah and I dapet Rumah Sakit (Tentara) Reksodiwiriyo sebagai siklus daerah Siklus Bedah kita.
Which setelah hampir seminggu di sini, I can say sangat nikmat dan penuh pengalaman. 💞


Pak Mensuknil : "Area 2 flexor digitorum, nomenslen namanya....kalian pernah dengar?"
Kita berdua : #diam w dalam ati 'ini ngejanya gimana ya...siapa coba yang ngasih nama anak nomeslen? apa dia masih sepupunya Nomensen?" so I googled it..... And...
Gladys : "Ouh.... Namanya NO MAN'S LAND, Pak?! " #sambil ngasih tunjuk hasil googling ke Nadrah
Pak Mensuknil : " Iya...No Man's Land....Bukan tanah siapa-siapa, karna kalau daerah tersebut rusak, ga ada ahli manapun yang bisa bilang dia ngembaliin fungsinya 100%, karna rumitnya susunan daerah itu."

                                                                           

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Di suatu sore, saat kita mau ganti baju, post operasi, di KAMAR GANTI DOKTER.
Me : #singing
Nadrah : "Akhirnya selesai juga...."

Tiba-tiba...

Suara : "Dek..dek...kalian mau ganti baju? Saya masih di dalam Dek. Mau bagi-bagi rezeki kalian, Dek? Saya ga perlu rezeki kalian Dek...hehehe" #Sambil jalan keluar dari kamar ganti

Ternyata itu konsulen kita...keluar dari ruang shalat yang berpintu dan berdinding sendiri di dalam  kamar ganti... 😶😶😶

Nadrah and I : "ahahahahhahaahahaha"
Nadrah : "malu banget njirr....."

NB : semua konsulen bedah kita di RST berjenis kelamin laki-laki

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Beberapa penggunaan Dek dalam kehidupan RST kami..

Konsulen : "Jangan tegang gitu dek...santai aja." #ngoreksi cara pegang trokar kita

Konsulen : " Gapapa dek...saya juga dulu gitu..."

Konsulen : "Sini dek...saya ajarin."

Konsulen : "Pulang lah dek...mau ngapain lagi di sini?"


Beberapa penggunaan Koass dalam kehidupan gua  :

Paramedis  : " KOASSS!!!! Pegang alatnya!!! Mahal itu!!"

Paramedis : " KOASSSS!!!!!!! Alatnya....jatuh ditendang pasien nanti!! Mau ganti?!"

Paramedis : " Yang aktiflah KOASSS!!!!" #Di APN pertama seumur hidup gua...dan gua udah diteriakin kayak nyuri kotak amal mesjid (:


Tapi ini juga yang jadi penghibur...although gua cederung PPG (Pura Pura Gila) kalau udah diteriakin dengan suara yang bisa didengar dari ruang NICU di seberang.
I mean, koass is tough...so we gotta build tougher skin.
and somethimes, bakal ada kejadian konyol dan lucu yang bakal make all the dramas and the screamings bearable. 💕😉


So, hang in there, Darling.
You're doing amazing.💋💋💋

Nadrah

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