The last 5 months have been one of the most fast-changing periods in my life.
Not only regarding career or professional life, but also my internal locus.
I never knew how strong, resilient, and deeply rooted I am to my internal values until I faced some unexpected situations.
Thought I would fall hard and start questioning my decisions.
Instead, I was calm and solution-oriented.
Me: "Aku tuh dulu berpikir, karena Mama dan sepupu deket aku, proses pembentukannya dengan kehilangan orang tua. Aku sempat berpikir, apa aku harus ngelewatin proses itu juga ya untuk pembentukanku. Ternyata enggak. Pikiranku terlalu kecil untuk bisa menebak cara Tuhan."
Her: "Biasanya proses pembentukan itu adalah saat ekspektasi ga sesuai dengan kenyataan. Nah bisa berupa kehilangan orang tua, kegagalan, hubungan asmara yang berakhir. Tapi intinya adalah gimana menghadapi kenyataan yang ga sesuai dengan ekspektasi atau rencana itu."
So, whatever 2025 may bring, I know for sure it's a big change.
Not because I know exactly what's coming, but I know I have gone through one of the most transformative situations, and I'm glad to say that what come out of me during this time are desired and tested traits.
Personally, I felt like, "Aghh... my core indeed is pure and unshakeable. Well, guess I had underestimated myself all along." :')
On another note,
I know for sure that having faith doesn't mean you never experience doubts or anxiety.
But having faith means you press on because you know He's got this.
And even though the storms seem scary, He is in the boat with you; not only that,
He will calm them and ask you to sleep it in because He will get us to the land.
He always does.
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