Wednesday, May 22, 2019

John Snow

Me  : #OnThePhone "Halo.Aku masuk kok Mam hari ini....ok..bye"

Uca : "Emang kamu segitu bandelnya ya Dys?Ampek harus diabsen gitu pagi-pagi masuk apa enggak?"

Me  : #Senyum aja #dalam ati 'you know nothing, John Snow.'

Friday, May 10, 2019

Straightening Up

Mai : " Tapi kayak jadi ada 2 skala berbeda gitu Glad..."
Me  : "hmmmm.....iya sih Mai..."

both silent

Me : " Eh Mai...may be the right words are "adulthood" and "maturity". Adulthood memang bisa aja didapat orang waktu dia reach certain age or able to do something society think as "adulthood mater".  Tapi kalau "maturity", it's deeper and harder to measure...Cuman kan di bahasa Indonesia keduanya sama-sama diartikan "dewasa".



Monday, April 29, 2019

Walk me home, wouldn't you?

Mai : "Sedih kan, Glad?"
Me  : "Huh?"
Mai :" Iya..sedih kan Oli mau pindah ni?"
Me  : "Ouh...iya, tapi lebih sedih lagi waktu kam pindah tiba-tiba kemarin. Dan Oli juga udah ada ngasih tau kan ini...jadi udah persiapan. Dan udah ada juga perpisahan yang lebih menyakitkan.."


                                                                                ***

Hello everyone.
I can not believe this is already week 8 of Surgery Department, when at first I just really couldn't get through each day without wanting to come straight home right away, and just ditch everything.

So many things happended.
Tapi kayak I've said that too f-ing many times.
But no jokes this time, bener-bener banyak dan ga terduga.
Like a whole plot-twist in just one episode that you missed..ahahahhah

Any way,
aku tahu banget aku orang yang sangat sulit menerima saat sahabat (atau setidaknya, aku yang menganggap dia dan memperlakukan dia sebagai sahabat) tapi ternyata mengecewakan.
Like I used to hold that dissapointment and bitterness for too long..
I used to ask like
"why she just don't appreciate me the way I appreciate her?"
"how could she say something like that about me?'


Gitu juga waktu dulu (like 2 tahun lalu) Mai tiba-tiba pindah kosan, tanpa ada ngasih tau aku sama sekali.
Tiba-tiba, aku pulang dari kampus, her room was already empty.


Kalau sekarang aku ngingat kejadian itu, aku ngerti kenapa I was so hurt...because Mai was such a 'bigger' sister figure I always hold and trust and love...and at that time she just moved out without any preamble or what so ever.

Tapi, sekarang setelah aku Koass, dan aku ngerti situasi yang anak koass hadapi, stress mental, batin, fisik yang kita dapat di koass, aku paham kenapa Mai bisa ngelakuin itu.
Aku paham kenapa Mai bisa ngambil keputusan itu dengan segala situasi di siklusnya kemarin dan di kosan saat itu.

I mean, aku juga udah ngelewatin masa di mana I wasn't even myself.
Like going to the hospital was such a horrifying thing that I had migraine just by getting ready for it.

But, you know what, I see now that masa-masa di mana rasanya things were really painful and uncomfortable, that's when changes take place, when you grow, when you are being shifted.

So now...saat di mana perpisahan seems to be just around every corner, Mai yang udah mau wisuda dokter aja, Oli yang pindah kosan, persahabatan yang udah ga kayak dulu lagi....I can finally say


"It's okay.
I accept it the way it is.
Because if our souls are really best-friends for each other, no distance, nor time will set us apart. 
The universe always has a way to bring same vibration and frequency together. "





















Tuesday, March 26, 2019

What's SUB??

Hi everyone!

Today I'd really like to talk about consciousness...and its sub.

I love them both..I mean gua harus bener-bener sadar dan alert kan tiap kali mau ganti perban pasien, mau cabut jahitan, atau mau jadi asisten 1 di OK. Bu. But, there's a loophole somewhere in my brain (I can sense it 😁 ), so sometimes the "sub" is showing up. 

Biasanya sub bakalan muncul when I'm too tired, or full with thoughts, or both...I am too tired of thinking and then I fell a sleep in the middle of asking questions to myself.
Sub, in my case, beberapa kali muncul sebagai pesan yang "aku kira aku udah balas", atau "apaan sih balasan gua ga jelas banget", atau that type of "I wish I did't send" message.

Zaman dulu banget di SMA :

Mr. M : "Kalau menurut prediksi saya... soalnya bakal kayak gini..."
Me : "Apa? Istri Bapak?" #Dengan posisi duduk bangku kedua dari depan, dan suara Batak gua yang bisa kedengeran sekelas.
Louis : #temen sebangku "Prediksi Gladys.Prediksi."
Mr. M : " Wah...berarti yang ada di kepalanya istri Bapak aja ya..."
Sekelas : " HAHAHAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHA...."


Sub is like the wild, honest, and raw version of my reaction.
I like her.
And I know she's good.
Trying to tell me what's really going on inside, cuz' most of the time, I choose not to show what's really deep down, until it start to crack, and the inside can't no longer hold it, it turns into mental break-down.


Mai : " Kenapa emangnya Glad kalau semua orang tau apa yang kamu rasa?"
Glad : " Gak Mai...Aku gak mau orang lain tau sisi lemahku. Aku cuman mau mereka tau Gladys yang mereka lihat. Aku cuman bakal nunjukkin yang aku rasain, semuanya ke orang terdekat, yang aku percaya."

Sub juga muncul in hunches, gut feelings, voice in my head, and dreams.
I used to think this was all a you're-kidding-me kinda thing.
But no babe, it's true...and to sharpen them, you gotta train your consciousness to start believing in the unseen.






Kalau kata Dea : "PIPI KAU KENAPA DYS???!"
Honestly, No idea my friend..... -__-




And this hits the deepest and hardest.
Happy wedding to this couple, A true love.
πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•




Note : In most of the times and generally speaking, sub bisa juga keluar if your under the influence, like whatever the kind of influence you're taking, either it's drugs, alcohol, or love.
But,  from what I learn, you can always anticipate.
If you know your sub is just way too strong than your ratio, then stay away from the circumtances enabling it taking control. Or train your consciousness to be stronger than the sub.


Friday, March 22, 2019

Dek...Dek...Dek..DEK!!!

Hallooww All!!
Hope y'all doing life wonderfuly, thriving, living all your dreams!

Post kali ini spesial banget..pake dua telor mata api setengah mateng, cuz' I havent had breakfast yet πŸ‘―πŸ˜‡πŸ˜…
Post ini adalah hasil selentingan Nadrah, cuz I, Gladys Olivia, had been saying "I'll post a blog" for some days and didn't manage to do it. πŸ‘€πŸ’©


So here we go.

Nadrah and I dapet Rumah Sakit (Tentara) Reksodiwiriyo sebagai siklus daerah Siklus Bedah kita.
Which setelah hampir seminggu di sini, I can say sangat nikmat dan penuh pengalaman. πŸ’ž


Pak Mensuknil : "Area 2 flexor digitorum, nomenslen namanya....kalian pernah dengar?"
Kita berdua : #diam w dalam ati 'ini ngejanya gimana ya...siapa coba yang ngasih nama anak nomeslen? apa dia masih sepupunya Nomensen?" so I googled it..... And...
Gladys : "Ouh.... Namanya NO MAN'S LAND, Pak?! " #sambil ngasih tunjuk hasil googling ke Nadrah
Pak Mensuknil : " Iya...No Man's Land....Bukan tanah siapa-siapa, karna kalau daerah tersebut rusak, ga ada ahli manapun yang bisa bilang dia ngembaliin fungsinya 100%, karna rumitnya susunan daerah itu."


                                                                           

                                                                                ***

Di suatu sore, saat kita mau ganti baju, post operasi, di KAMAR GANTI DOKTER.
Me : #singing
Nadrah : "Akhirnya selesai juga...."

Tiba-tiba...

Suara : "Dek..dek...kalian mau ganti baju? Saya masih di dalam Dek. Mau bagi-bagi rezeki kalian, Dek? Saya ga perlu rezeki kalian Dek...hehehe" #Sambil jalan keluar dari kamar ganti

Ternyata itu konsulen kita...keluar dari ruang shalat yang berpintu dan berdinding sendiri di dalam  kamar ganti... 😢😢😢

Nadrah and I : "ahahahahhahaahahaha"
Nadrah : "malu banget njirr....."

NB : semua konsulen bedah kita di RST berjenis kelamin laki-laki

                                                                               ***
Beberapa penggunaan Dek dalam kehidupan RST kami..

Konsulen : "Jangan tegang gitu dek...santai aja." #ngoreksi cara pegang trokar kita

Konsulen : " Gapapa dek...saya juga dulu gitu..."

Konsulen : "Sini dek...saya ajarin."

Konsulen : "Pulang lah dek...mau ngapain lagi di sini?"


Beberapa penggunaan Koass dalam kehidupan gua  :

Paramedis  : " KOASSS!!!! Pegang alatnya!!! Mahal itu!!"

Paramedis : " KOASSSS!!!!!!! Alatnya....jatuh ditendang pasien nanti!! Mau ganti?!"

Paramedis : " Yang aktiflah KOASSS!!!!" #Di APN pertama seumur hidup gua...dan gua udah diteriakin kayak nyuri kotak amal mesjid (:


Tapi ini juga yang jadi penghibur...although gua cederung PPG (Pura Pura Gila) kalau udah diteriakin dengan suara yang bisa didengar dari ruang NICU di seberang.
I mean, koass is tough...so we gotta build tougher skin.
and somethimes, bakal ada kejadian konyol dan lucu yang bakal make all the dramas and the screamings bearable. πŸ’•πŸ˜‰


So, hang in there, Darling.
You're doing amazing.πŸ’‹πŸ’‹πŸ’‹




Nadrah

PAPAN KEHIDUPAN KITA








Tuesday, March 12, 2019

When universe comes to play with you

Me : "Jas, lu inget ga sih waktu lu bilang ke gue 'kali lu pernah minta ke universe untuk buat hiduplu seru' ?"
Najas : "Yaa gue ingat. Napa tu?"
Me : " Gua yakin banget the universe is doing it right now."


                                                                            ***

Ada waktu di mana perubahan itu terjadi dalam satu malam, and after that your whole world changed.
How you see things changed.
What you think you knew is barely the truth.
And when that time comes, prepare yourself to enter a new journey.
Like, a whole roller-coaster ride in real life.

                                                                            ***

I've always been so private about my private life.
And I will always stay that way.
People have been telling stories and asking questions....
And me and my inner circle just keep our mouths shut.
It ain't easy when people tell wrong stories about you.
It really is not.
But anyway, no body really knows you.
So let it be.
Sooner or later, all cards will be open, and the truth will be out.

                                                                               ***

I've been asking Bapa these questions :
"What is it You want me to see God? What is it You want to do with me?"

And after these past few months, I can say :
1. Bapa always gives you signs.
That small voice, that idea popping outta nowhere in your head, that feeling inside your heart. LISTEN TO 'EM.

2. Bapa always provides WHAT YOU NEED.
It may not seem like what you ask for or what you want, but it is what you need. And that's my dear, is more than enough.

3. People sense, people see, people know.










Sunday, February 17, 2019

Caterpilars are meant to fly (5 years later)

P.S. :
This post was meant to be posted like in 2013, i guess....but here I am...pushing the "POST"  bottom now in 2019..
For half rest of my class...I really wish I still had our name list...

                                                          ***


Hellloooo my blog!!

I know,I know, I'm an irresponsible person for abondaning you.
But, as the result of taking some pause on writing, I have so mannyy things to talk about now.

I'm gonna start with my forever-loved-and-remembered class,CAMEO.

Truth,I wouldn't do so many great things and have such wonderful times without you.
I'm a proud CAMEO.

I was thinking about some words I should have tell you all when I had the chance.

But here I go :

1. Anastasya

Seharusnya kau pindah ke Korea dari lahir nas.Your really look like a real Korean.
Aku bakal selalu ingat kau bilang ke Putri "Tampar dulu aku put.." waktu kau lupa minum kopi. =D

2. Andreas Ganer Naibaho

Kau orang yang baik Ndre. Being the head of something especially an organisation takes "balls" real "balls", dan dalam banyak hal, "keberanian" itulah yang diperlukan.

3. Andrian (My Ahab)

Thanks buat jadi suamiku di drama Ahab dan Betsyeba. ;)
Goodluck in Taiwan,you're gonna be a great doctor.

4. Calvin Thelma

Well, kalok ada ensiklopedia berjalan,aku rasa kaulah itu.
Ga ada yang bisa ngalahin kau kalau kita main General Knowledge Game dari Mrs.Arina.
And you have good taste in music.

5. Daniel Tanu

Seorang perwira angkatan darat, kepala keamanan 12 IPA 1,a.k.a PKM Security.
Penghapal timeline Pak Malaoe terbaik di IPA 1. XD

6. Delvin Saudalimka

Sejujurnya Ciuw, kadang" aku mau nipuk kau pake buku cetak bhasa inggris kalok kau udah terlalu ge-er. Tapi kalok kau udah mainin gitar dan ga buka mulut, semua cewek normal pasti lansung kesemsem sama kau.

7. Dickie 'PAKAM'

Paling suka sama lagu yang agak melow" gimana gituh.
Cowok paling rajin latihan buat konser kelas. I sincerely thank you for that.

8. Eko Ngadiono

another great guitarist from our class. a nice and smart boy.

9. Erny Suntono

So, I'd been your classmate for 5 years. I guess we're kinda stuck together hahahha. Goodluck in Untar.

10. Evelyn Chen

A lady in growing.

11. Fansisca "AMOY" Siallagan

Thanks buat jadi kawan sebangkuku di kelas X,moy. Maaf buat segala kecacad-anku, termasuk soal batang magnum, mayoneiss, matahari bersinar. Kau cewek yang kuat and I'm happy for your romance ;)

12. Febrian "CIPAN" Fanuel Tiara

Pencipta lagu kelas yang bakal kunyanyiin sampek aku tua. Aku rasa aku bikin kau takut. :D

13. Gladys Olivia Vivian Siregar

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14. Hanna Yanwar

This one is a beautiful girl yang aku yakin will soon be a graceful lady.
Thanks buat kerja kerasmu buat kelas kita. And I always know you have that different point of view for things.

15. Helen Inggrid Luis

Well helen, seharusnya kau ngasih tau kami dimana beli pelet yang ampuh kek punyamu. 4 dari 25 kaum lakik di kelas naksir  Down-to-earth Helen! :D Ga salah banyak yang naksir kau Lon, kau bener" a kind person.

16. Hendra "Pak Urat"

Master komputer IPA 1, orang dengan proyek besar bahkan sebelum lulus kuliah. :)

17. Irwanto Suganda

Master matematika paling "baby-face" di kelas. Slamat blajar di ITB! :)

18. Jeannefer

A fan of Demon Salvatore.This should make us anemy but luckily we weren't that stupid.

19. Jeffry Joman

You're actually kind of annoying. You have good taste in those branded stuff. Goodluck on whatever major you take.

20. Jessica Tanaka

Ketua Retreat SMA Methodist-2 angkatan 48. Penggila komik Jepang.

21. Jonathan "AJO" Rorasokita Ritonga

The next Pilot of Garuda Indonesia. Kakak pergi, adek menyambut. Adek pergi, sahabat menyambut. ;)

22. Joshua "JABOT" Christian

Cowok paling merasa mirip aktor korea, paling getol curhat tentang Helen ke Luois. ;)

23. Judika "ANIEK" Handayani Claudia Manurung

Kawan sebangku selama kelas 11. Orang yang bangunin aku kalok Pak Situngkir (guru matematika) udah tahu jawaban soalnya. Thanks for sharing your stories with me nik. Dan maaf atas hal" aneh yang kumasukkan ke kepalamu hahahhahah... ;)


24. Justin Vato

The sexy-lipped Oppa! :)

25. Justine
Mahasiswa Etnomusicology Nomensen 2013. Calon guru musik pengganti Bu Achierani.

26. Kevin Tanoto

Cowok dengan badan paling bagus di IPA 1. Psikopat yang suka banget curhat sama Putri *ehemm..* ;)


27. Putri

You beautiful soul and angelic voice bish..I love you.

28. Louis

Man you thought me what pure love means...and congratulation on the new love..you deserve it.

29.  Nova

I know we dont text or talk like forever...but I'm always grateful to God for you

30. Tertia

Bok su kia tercantik dan terpintar nyanyi :*

31. Olga

ga,, thank you for just existing... you're a work of wonders.

32.  Rivana

Jew, thankyou buat jadi Jew...jd aku bisa lihat cinta murni dr laki-laki yang ga ngarapin apa-apa...

33. Putra

Thank you buat jadi master di banyak hal dan tetep down to earth.

34. Yenny

Thank you buat selalu ngegangguin aku..Good luck in your life bebh..

35. Victor

Thank you buat jadi ketua kelas seumur hidup, laki-laki paling jujur tentang "pastime"-nya...skarang aku ngerti semuanya...ahahahah

36. Monica

I always knew you had something big...you just don't talk a lot about it.. :*

37. Buat semua temen sekalas yang udah ngelewatin semuanya bersama, walau aku ga ingat semua namanya satu-satu lagi...thank you..like really... XII IPA 1 was LEGIT...

and i'm so glad I was surrounded by you amazing people with amazing personalities and big dreams in your hearts and hands.


I LOVE YOU.