Caterpilars are meant to fly (5 years later)

P.S. :
This post was meant to be posted like in 2013, i guess....but here I am...pushing the "POST"  bottom now in 2019..
For half rest of my class...I really wish I still had our name list...

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Hellloooo my blog!!
I know,I know, I'm an irresponsible person for abondaning you.
But, as the result of taking some pause on writing, I have so mannyy things to talk about now.

I'm gonna start with my forever-loved-and-remembered class,CAMEO.
Truth,I wouldn't do so many great things and have such wonderful times without you.
I'm a proud CAMEO.

I was thinking about some words I should have tell you all when I had the chance.
But here I go :

1. Anastasya
Seharusnya kau pindah ke Korea dari lahir nas.Your really look like a real Korean.
Aku bakal selalu ingat kau bilang ke Putri "Tampar dulu aku put.." waktu kau lupa minum kopi. =D

2. Andreas Ganer Naibaho
Kau orang yang baik Ndre. Being the head of something especially an organisation takes "balls" real "balls", dan dalam banyak hal, "keberanian" itulah yang diperlukan.

3. Andrian (My Ahab)
Thanks buat jadi suamiku di drama Ahab dan Betsyeba. ;)
Goodluck in Taiwan,you're gonna be a great doctor.

4. Calvin Thelma
Well, kalok ada ensiklopedia berjalan,aku rasa kaulah itu.
Ga ada yang bisa ngalahin kau kalau kita main General Knowledge Game dari Mrs.Arina.
And you have good taste in music.

5. Daniel Tanu
Seorang perwira angkatan darat, kepala keamanan 12 IPA 1,a.k.a PKM Security.
Penghapal timeline Pak Malaoe terbaik di IPA 1. XD

6. Delvin Saudalimka
Sejujurnya Ciuw, kadang" aku mau nipuk kau pake buku cetak bhasa inggris kalok kau udah terlalu ge-er. Tapi kalok kau udah mainin gitar dan ga buka mulut, semua cewek normal pasti lansung kesemsem sama kau.

7. Dickie 'PAKAM'
Paling suka sama lagu yang agak melow" gimana gituh.
Cowok paling rajin latihan buat konser kelas. I sincerely thank you for that.

8. Eko Ngadiono
another great guitarist from our class. a nice and smart boy.

9. Erny Suntono
So, I'd been your classmate for 5 years. I guess we're kinda stuck together hahahha. Goodluck in Untar.

10. Evelyn Chen
A lady in growing.

11. Fansisca "AMOY" Siallagan
Thanks buat jadi kawan sebangkuku di kelas X,moy. Maaf buat segala kecacad-anku, termasuk soal batang magnum, mayoneiss, matahari bersinar. Kau cewek yang kuat and I'm happy for your romance ;)

12. Febrian "CIPAN" Fanuel Tiara
Pencipta lagu kelas yang bakal kunyanyiin sampek aku tua. Aku rasa aku bikin kau takut. :D

13. Gladys Olivia Vivian Siregar
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14. Hanna Yanwar
This one is a beautiful girl yang aku yakin will soon be a graceful lady.
Thanks buat kerja kerasmu buat kelas kita. And I always know you have that different point of view for things.

15. Helen Inggrid Luis
Well helen, seharusnya kau ngasih tau kami dimana beli pelet yang ampuh kek punyamu. 4 dari 25 kaum lakik di kelas naksir  Down-to-earth Helen! :D Ga salah banyak yang naksir kau Lon, kau bener" a kind person.

16. Hendra "Pak Urat"
Master komputer IPA 1, orang dengan proyek besar bahkan sebelum lulus kuliah. :)

17. Irwanto Suganda
Master matematika paling "baby-face" di kelas. Slamat blajar di ITB! :)

18. Jeannefer
A fan of Demon Salvatore.This should make us anemy but luckily we weren't that stupid.

19. Jeffry Joman
You're actually kind of annoying. You have good taste in those branded stuff. Goodluck on whatever major you take.

20. Jessica Tanaka
Ketua Retreat SMA Methodist-2 angkatan 48. Penggila komik Jepang.

21. Jonathan "AJO" Rorasokita Ritonga
The next Pilot of Garuda Indonesia. Kakak pergi, adek menyambut. Adek pergi, sahabat menyambut. ;)

22. Joshua "JABOT" Christian
Cowok paling merasa mirip aktor korea, paling getol curhat tentang Helen ke Luois. ;)

23. Judika "ANIEK" Handayani Claudia Manurung
Kawan sebangku selama kelas 11. Orang yang bangunin aku kalok Pak Situngkir (guru matematika) udah tahu jawaban soalnya. Thanks for sharing your stories with me nik. Dan maaf atas hal" aneh yang kumasukkan ke kepalamu hahahhahah... ;)


24. Justin Vato
The sexy-lipped Oppa! :)

25. Justine

Mahasiswa Etnomusicology Nomensen 2013. Calon guru musik pengganti Bu Achierani.

26. Kevin Tanoto
Cowok dengan badan paling bagus di IPA 1. Psikopat yang suka banget curhat sama Putri *ehemm..* ;)


27. Putri
You beautiful soul and angelic voice bish..I love you.

28. Louis
Man you thought me what pure love means...and congratulation on the new love..you deserve it.

29.  Nova
I know we dont text or talk like forever...but I'm always grateful to God for you

30. Tertia
Bok su kia tercantik dan terpintar nyanyi :*

31. Olga
ga,, thank you for just existing... you're a work of wonders.

32.  Rivana
Jew, thankyou buat jadi Jew...jd aku bisa lihat cinta murni dr laki-laki yang ga ngarapin apa-apa...

33. Putra
Thank you buat jadi master di banyak hal dan tetep down to earth.

34. Yenny
Thank you buat selalu ngegangguin aku..Good luck in your life bebh..

35. Victor
Thank you buat jadi ketua kelas seumur hidup, laki-laki paling jujur tentang "pastime"-nya...skarang aku ngerti semuanya...ahahahah

36. Monica
I always knew you had something big...you just don't talk a lot about it.. :*

37. Buat semua temen sekalas yang udah ngelewatin semuanya bersama, walau aku ga ingat semua namanya satu-satu lagi...thank you..like really... XII IPA 1 was LEGIT...
and i'm so glad I was surrounded by you amazing people with amazing personalities and big dreams in your hearts and hands.


I LOVE YOU.

thank you, (and only until the right one comes i'll go) next

To whom I spent 4 years with :

Makasih udah ngajarin aku tentang singa betina.

Sekarang aku udah jadi singa betina, untuk diriku sendiri, dan bukan untuk “singa jantanku”.

Dan aku dikelilingi singa betina-singa betina lainnya.

They water me with support and love, things I lost from you.

Makasih udah mau nemenin aku ngelewatin masa “ga punya siapa-siapa dan apa-apa” di Padang.

Makasih buat keliling kota Padang dengan jalan kaki….I always love walking.

Makasih untuk semua panggilan yang pernah ada dan mungkin masih ada, 'my lady', 'Edys', and 'Nong'.

Makasih udah jadi orang pertama I shared my dark stories with, it was a 16 year-old burden carried by one girl. And this was when my trust grew for you.

Thanks for listening (or half-listening) to my blabbing.
And thanks for learning to also do your blabbing to me, when you’re not exactly a speaker…even of your own thoughts and feelings.

Thank you for not telling me the truth and letting it crush me into pieces.

It thought the meaning of disappointment and despair.

Thank you for having second thoughts on what to choose.

It helped me realise what I want and deserve.

Thank you for not being honest and pure at the end of it.

It tought me to trust my gut feeling and read the signs more.

[Movie Review] hichki (2018)

The thing 'bout loneliness

Hello everyone!

Happy Sunday.

I hope ya'all having great time. 💕💕

I didn't know many people working as doctors or were a medical student at the time I was about to make the decision to take the test.

Now, the thing is.... medical student is already another thing, clinical student is way up-in-the-sky level of another thing.

I'm in my second cycle now, Forensic, which also means I am the town prisoner, since I can not go outta town, for in case there's a sudden unusual death, we're having dead body physical examination, like anytime the case comes.

Be it midnight, be it at dawn. you gotta get to the hospital, or you'll fail. 

It's that simple. 😳😎 

I don't know if it's just me or may be the other anak coass ( clinical students ) have ever felt this way.

Clinical term makes you interact with so many people, the patients, your lecturers (the doctors, consultants), the doctors doing their residency, the nurses, the staff, the other health-related students, your clinical friends.

The consistency of this meeting takes almost 9 to 12 hours, it even can be up to 36 hours if you're having the night shift, makes you feel like you are never alone, like you're surrounded by that many people, so lonely was not exactly something you'll feel when you're at the hospital.

Then you finish your shift, it's time to come home. 

Now you're alone....and at my experience I was lonely.

Like, in clinical term, you and your friends won't have the same schedule...so don't expect much on having your friends come or having day/night out.

Jo is back in Jakarta. Ulfa is in Medan. Since, they still haven't started their clinical term.

Mai was having different schedules. Oli was not available.

It was so lonely...that I just cried....

Like "man....I didn't know it was gonna be this up-side-down in coass (clinical term)."

Second, all the people I mentioned above, the people you meet in the hospital, the are people with emotions, with different backgrounds, different views, different ways of reacting.

Don't be surprised when you just started your day feeling good..and you by any chance, got nagged, or complained. or nicely speaking, negatively fedback by those people.

That is the thing.

That what clinical term in human medicine looks like, but somehow, you still feel grateful cuz' these experiences enriched you.

But, I totally get it now, why there are medical workers (esp. recidency doctors) commit suicide.

Their working hour is 100 times higher than mine, so is the expectation they carry, the emotions the feel.

So...I will always say this to anyone telling and asking my opinions on him/her becoming a medical students, 

"My friends, it's a whole different world here. If you want it just for your parents, or anyone but you, leave it. There are other things greater than becoming a doctor. Trust me."

Meanwhile, I am handling the loneliness nicely.... #hopefully No..I mean it 😂😄

It's just since when I had that darkest time, no one was around, so right now I want it to stay that way.

Just let me be alone right now...figuring out how to feel towards these....towards my closest ones weren't there when I needed the most.

I know it seems rude...like shutting the doors for people...but I need that in mean time...

Too mush disappoitment in friendship right now....in having good time together but gone missing when needed...

I guess loneliness can do some good when we are accepting it...just the way it is.

May be that way we can appreciate our company better in the future.

If you have a word or experience the same or anything in  your clinical term...feel free to share, in comments, in twitter, emai, or FB...

I would really love to hear others' stories.

XoXo
Gladys Olivia

When ZAYN turns into MICHAEL BOLTON

HEEELLLLLLOOOOOO ALLL!!

I think it's old story to say sorry for not posting anything..so long story short I've been doing great. 
I am already in my clinical term now, to be precised, I'm in my second cycle - outta 15 departments I have to learn skills and knowledge from- which is Forensic. 👮👧
And also I made great memories in my 2 and a half month school-day-OFF....ahahhaha... I finally went to DUFAN (like I've been dreaming of it since forever 😆😆) and I also went to Bali and took as(s)thetic pics with Dea, but considering the local value, culture, and customs where I am right now, I choose to not post them now, but wait till I finish everything and fly back home. 😉👯💃 


You know i don't really like talking 'bout relationship in my blog nor FB nor the gram...I just don't want people minding my business too much. I think it's nice if people only know what I let them know, which are merely the surface.

Well, I'm 22 now...and the thought of a more serious relationship is on the board. And though sometimes I think it's distracting me from the main purpose - getting an MD degree, it is still important.
But since becoming a doctor is a long process and there's still a looonggg-lyfe learning waiting after that, so setting the focus and energy right is a mandatory. 
And I think it's wonderful to create the life we've been dreaming of since we're young, like start it from now when the energy is at its highest point, when we still don't have 'social' obligatory to take care of the house, cook for the family, so on and so on.
I'm not saying I am not those kind of woman, I am. My mom is my main role-model for getting it all together, get her job done, dreams chased, family taken care of ( home-made food, grocery shopping, every part of a housewife's task )
And there's more in life when we are able to create greatness and goodness in it. And you can only do that when basic life needs are met, like food,clothes, and safety. I am not talking about the amount of money you have, I'm talking about being impactful and also helpful to others. Like you can't help others if you can't even help yourself, if you still hanging to somebody else, if you're still a mess.

Luckily Jo has been so supportive with all my dreams and projects.
And moreover, Mom is the best example and supporter and sponsor. 😂😂

So I think we're gonna take another 4/5 years working our own dreams 'together' to set the base of our home strong, so it can be a home that's full of love and support for everyone in it and send warmth to the surroundings.

WHOOO DIZZZ?? 😂😂😂

My bestfriend/cousin/sister GOT MERRIED 😎

YAPH..she grew up... 👶👱👵

no normal pose, please!

BTW....I guess breaking up with Gigi was (or is it still "is"?) a big hit-in-the-face for Zayn that it changed his usual music to MICHAEL-BOLTON-kind-of music. 😃😎😅
But I like this song though, since I'm a hopeless romantic in private. 😂😄💖 

[ r e m i n d e r ]

               even if it is something I wanna do and I like, that doesn't mean bumps won't be there.

when the will power is shaky, discipline takes the wheel and makes sure we're still on track, going to our destination.

- Goalcast 

[MOVIE REVIEW] NEWNESS (2017) - How love works in the Z-Generation era

HELLO BLOGGIES!!

💙💓💕😁😀😂😎

I know this time I've been off for like forever. 😔😔
and uhh... good news is that I've finished my Seminar Proposal.

I'm so grateful for that and couldn't thank God enough for all the help He sents to help me go through it in just 2 months. 😇😇🙏🙏
And right now, I'm in the middle of doing my revision before getting the "licence" to do my reseach.
Also, next week, I'm going to have the 4.2 block examination...
hahahaha.. Like I can't believe there only 1 block left before entering clinical study or coass or clerckship.
#WishMeLuckOnThis 🙌🙆🙋

So, this afternoon, I was group-studying with my girls and I managed to download some new movies...for I haven't watched anything new since all this skripsi thing.

There were Despicable Me 3, Annabelle: The Creation (although I don't think I have the gutbto watch it alone 😧😧), and also Newness.

So..

at the beginning the movie starts with today's setting, people with dating app which actually ends up being hooking-up app. 😝😝

I know it started like super predicatable....but somehow along the movie, I can find myself in there, and to be honest, it wasn't just me.
I remember hearing the stories from my friends.

I guess it's the era or it's just the nature of human to always long for something new, something exited, something adventrous.

But, at the end of the day, we gotta give our own meaning to that, because life doesn't work that way, and LOVE doesn't work that way.

SO... I'd like to give 8/10 for the movie to discuss such real problem in this digital era, where everyone is on the search of something that's 100% like what they want.

And I recommend this movie to all the 20+ youngters and adults who needs something cheesy yet true material to watch.

some of the qoutes I get from Newness :

Paul : "Love is two people who don't give up on each other."

Martin : "You're saying its a choice."

Paul : "I feel like if you think too hard about it, You're just gonna complicate it and fu*k up.You gotta stop thinking ".

Martin : "I dont know, whatever will be will be." 

Paul     :  "No man. No, see, for love to work and for happiness to work, and for you if you wanna have a family some day, you have to actually pursue it. You know, don't leave it up to fate."  

P.S. : along the movie I was like “ehmmm..this boy..he looks familiar. It's Nicholas Hoult, isn't it?”
And yuph!! I got it right!!ahahahah…never forget a cute face..and those blue eyes. 😍😜💕

Oh..that too-wide smile 😔😔

HAPPY WEEKEND peeps!!

See you as soon as possible.

with love,

Gladys Olivia