Wait a minute

I guess after all that has happened this past 1 year,
one thing I learn the most is to live in the mean time.

To fully live the current moment yet still working and holding onto hopes for the future.

Weirdly enough, despite the turbulances life throws, these calmness and steadiness are unshakeable.
My younger self would have been broken into pieces, turning into despair, and losing faith in the calling or in God's presence.
 

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Dan bukan hanya itu saja. Kita malah bermegah juga dalam kesengsaraan kita, karena kita tahu, bahwa kesengsaraan itu menimbulkan ketekunan, dan ketekunan menimbulkan tahan uji dan tahan uji menimbulkan pengharapan. Dan pengharapan tidak mengecewakan, karena kasih Allah telah dicurahkan di dalam hati kita oleh Roh Kudus yang telah dikaruniakan kepada kita.

Roma 5:3-5 TB

 3Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5:3-5 NIV

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In the mean time, I am waiting for an answer that will decide the course of not only the other half of this year, but also the rest of my life.
Excited for the unknown.
Hopeful for new chapters and characthers that may come along.

The long-time creeping question in me has been answered through a series of life experiences.

"God, am I strong enough for this calling You've put in my heart?"

No more guessing, no more doubts.

Yes, I am. 
Because if God says it, God will make the way, it will come to pass and we will see it through.